Enchanted Dream
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I just joined this forum. I have read a lot of threads regarding the lonliness factor.
I am for one has never been able to handle my lonliness. I have always been self destructing, low self esteem type of person. I am 39 years old and never been married or have any children (I am infertile). Never had a serious relationship. I do see someone now in another state but he and I are so different. He is a good man, but not the "one" as we have nothing in common. The only good thing is the sex.
I feel like a freak. I feel like an alien. I have never fit in, and don't have any real close friends. I can count on my hand how many people I talk to. A couple from chatlines I have been in touch with for a few years that I have never met. One ex boyfriend that we were mostly friends, no passion. I talk to another ex that all he wants to do is have sex, and its been 4 years since I have seen him. He is pretty much a dog. I had an ex from 20 years contact me on facebook, and that made me feel wonderful that someone remembered me and wanted to get back in touch with me but he lives on the other side of the country now, and has a baby and a girlfriend and when we do talk, its like we are strangers. And he always wants some kind of nude photo. I knew him when we were kids. I was 19 and he was 22. He also broke my heart at that time.
I guess I just wanted to vent. I know that other people have the same issues as me. I always felt I was the only one. I am a heavy girl, and I want to be thinner but I know that is not the secret of being happy. I just want to be content. I would like to find the "one" but I have a very HARD time trusting anyone, since I was burnt so many times by men.
Where can you meet a decent person? I don't go out much except for the gym. I am unemployed and collecting compensation, and will be going back to school in the fall. I have tried the dating websites but they are just a crazy as chatlines are. I just figure I will not meet that person.
I have always been into things that most people are not into. I love astronomy, history, philosphy, sports, and most women are not into any of that. I can't relate to a lot of the past friends that I knew that had kids. I think differently, and most people can't relate to me. I don't think I am weird. I just think that I think differently. I am obsessed over the meaning of life. Where we came from? Where are we going to? I don't know if that is a downer subject for most people. I guess I just wanted to rant. Thanks for anyone that is reading this. Any comments..would be appreciated
I am for one has never been able to handle my lonliness. I have always been self destructing, low self esteem type of person. I am 39 years old and never been married or have any children (I am infertile). Never had a serious relationship. I do see someone now in another state but he and I are so different. He is a good man, but not the "one" as we have nothing in common. The only good thing is the sex.
I feel like a freak. I feel like an alien. I have never fit in, and don't have any real close friends. I can count on my hand how many people I talk to. A couple from chatlines I have been in touch with for a few years that I have never met. One ex boyfriend that we were mostly friends, no passion. I talk to another ex that all he wants to do is have sex, and its been 4 years since I have seen him. He is pretty much a dog. I had an ex from 20 years contact me on facebook, and that made me feel wonderful that someone remembered me and wanted to get back in touch with me but he lives on the other side of the country now, and has a baby and a girlfriend and when we do talk, its like we are strangers. And he always wants some kind of nude photo. I knew him when we were kids. I was 19 and he was 22. He also broke my heart at that time.
I guess I just wanted to vent. I know that other people have the same issues as me. I always felt I was the only one. I am a heavy girl, and I want to be thinner but I know that is not the secret of being happy. I just want to be content. I would like to find the "one" but I have a very HARD time trusting anyone, since I was burnt so many times by men.
Where can you meet a decent person? I don't go out much except for the gym. I am unemployed and collecting compensation, and will be going back to school in the fall. I have tried the dating websites but they are just a crazy as chatlines are. I just figure I will not meet that person.
I have always been into things that most people are not into. I love astronomy, history, philosphy, sports, and most women are not into any of that. I can't relate to a lot of the past friends that I knew that had kids. I think differently, and most people can't relate to me. I don't think I am weird. I just think that I think differently. I am obsessed over the meaning of life. Where we came from? Where are we going to? I don't know if that is a downer subject for most people. I guess I just wanted to rant. Thanks for anyone that is reading this. Any comments..would be appreciated