I have been without friends for almost 10 years now. I'm a sophomore (2nd) year in college without any. During freshman year I was hit with social anxiety, and became a very anti-social person. I could do nothing about it as it was rather out of my control. This year I was hoping for things to change but it hasn't. I am seriously question my point of existence on this earth. It like no one ever want to be my friend, maybe I'm too ugly lol, maybe I appear unfriendly, maybe I intimidate people, maybe everyone assume I have friends already, maybe I'm curse, maybe cause I'm not your typical Asian dude, maybe this and maybe that, but at the end what is the answer? I just don't know, i have done everything to try to meet people, yet I am always the one looking outside, the one no one want to befriend with, the one that people know but don't really matter, the one that probably gonna end it all soon.
I'm pathetic.
I'm pathetic.