sallekhana
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i just dont understand anymore. i feel like i belong nowhere. i walked around campus today completely alone. i bought a pack of smokes just so when people see me alone outside they think "oh he's smoking. thats why he's out here" but its really because i feel better when i'm alone outside than alone inside. i hate my life so much right now its crazy. i feel like i'm just fading away. my ex texted me today. talking about how much she loves her boyfriend. i told her i didn't want to hear it and she threw my depression in my face. so i stayed up drinking and woke up and drank more. had my brother drive me to school. i passed out again in the library with a pile of poems under me. i woke up and they were gone. 3 months of writing. gone. my one friend is moving on in life and doing good in college. i cant even seem to get out of bed. i hurt everywhere. i hurt all over. i dont know whats gonna happen next but it scares me. i feel so helpless i dont know what to do anymore. i haven't gotten over my best friend passing away and i dont think i ever will. i dont think ill be able to find happiness without her. i loved her so much she was all i had. god i ******* hate my life!
i just want someone to tell me everythings going to be okay and to tell me they love me. i want someone to hold me like she did. i want someone to love. i want her back
i want her so bad its crazy
i just want someone to tell me everythings going to be okay and to tell me they love me. i want someone to hold me like she did. i want someone to love. i want her back
i want her so bad its crazy