Revengineer
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I made it through one and a half years, and the environment had changed very drastically during that time. It seemed the company was expanding in a direction where I was no longer needed. By the end my job had become irrelevant, and I pretty much lost all motivation and stopped coming in on time. So yeah, technically I deserved it.
When people are fired at the company, they "disappear." They're called into the office and 15 minutes later they're gone, never to be seen or heard from again. They cut your access to email the minute you're out the door. They don't even allow a few minutes to explain what happened to the people you worked with. It's a horrible feeling.
This is the second time I've been let go for bad performance at work. I wonder if there's something fundamentally wrong with me. Like my brain can't handle responsibility or some honeysuckle. I'm probably in the wrong field too but it's too late to change that now. Now I'll have to explain what happened at job interviews. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know how I'm going to tell my parents. I feel like I've let everyone down, including myself.
I'm sitting alone in my apartment wondering how it went so wrong. I grew up surrounded by overachievers who are now busy doing great things and changing the world. Going on trips and getting married. I turn 28 in exactly one week and I feel like I've wasted my entire life. No social life, undateable, hopelessly lazy and now unemployed. I have a master's degree but can't function in the real world. How ironic.
I'm just so tired of everything right now...
When people are fired at the company, they "disappear." They're called into the office and 15 minutes later they're gone, never to be seen or heard from again. They cut your access to email the minute you're out the door. They don't even allow a few minutes to explain what happened to the people you worked with. It's a horrible feeling.
This is the second time I've been let go for bad performance at work. I wonder if there's something fundamentally wrong with me. Like my brain can't handle responsibility or some honeysuckle. I'm probably in the wrong field too but it's too late to change that now. Now I'll have to explain what happened at job interviews. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know how I'm going to tell my parents. I feel like I've let everyone down, including myself.
I'm sitting alone in my apartment wondering how it went so wrong. I grew up surrounded by overachievers who are now busy doing great things and changing the world. Going on trips and getting married. I turn 28 in exactly one week and I feel like I've wasted my entire life. No social life, undateable, hopelessly lazy and now unemployed. I have a master's degree but can't function in the real world. How ironic.
I'm just so tired of everything right now...