dn560
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hi guys, ik its been a while...anyways so following up from the girl i met last year, within this past year we been thru so much in school. When she broke up with her boyfriend i was there for her n stuff and being around her so long i kinda grew attached to her and i well i started to fall for her. Fo the summer vacation she barely spoke to me, she wont reply my messages, and she just plain didnt care to check if i was alive...then after the summer beginning of school i heard that she met a stranger online and that she badly wants to meet him and that she only wants a relationship with him alone and that he was there for her and NO ONE else was. And she boarded a plane and went to meet the stranger she met on facebook. I couldnt believe what i was hearing i was shocked and worried out of my mind...she said they just had coffee and talked n stuff whatever. Then during the semester even tho shes always around me, there isnt much conversation and shes always on the phone texting random guys. Im not exaggerating when i say that because she told me and shes texting these guys during class, the guys are calling her phone and im just there holding in my tears and rage. Shes online all day and barely answers my messages, she never answered nor cared to returned my calls but these strangers who havent done honeysuckle for her gets to call and chat with her all hours of the night. Shes chasing guys in my country, the guy from canada and strings me along as a little *****. breaks my heart to see this happening and it started to get to me. Thing is we went out dates a few times but no matter how many dates we went and how many times i saved her from trouble, a guy over the phone is making more progress than i am. She sneeks off to meet a guy in my school who she hadnt spoken to in 5yrs and he seems to like her and they talk alot. His stupid jokes make her laugh while mine jjust makes her nod. She only replied to me when she had an assignment to do together and even left me to do all the work on my own, waking all night stressing while shes online chatting with guys and enjoying her sleep. I started avoiding her but no matter how hard i tried she still kept coming around me, when she talked, i would just say one word and end the convo and i even ducked class to avoid her. My feelings were so hurt to the point i started to feel depressed and it started affected my school performance, i failed 2 of my courses this semester because im only thinking her...she aced most of her courses because math is her thing and even tho she knew i sucked at math she never cared to help me...days when i didnt make it to class she never cared to msg or call to see if i was ok and well when i stopped being around her she never bothered to ask me why im acting this way...after all we been thru i honestly thought we had something, you guys might be reading this and be like im desperate n stuff but she lead me on really well...when we first met she ignored her bf to talk to me, we used to talk and text alot and we never got tired of each other but after her break up she changed...i know its my look thats why shes not interested in me my ******* thyroid ruined my life that i have to beg a girl to text me back no girl likes me, nobody on the whole likes me. guys make fun of me for being bald and hell she feels bad being around me at times too because im balding short and i look like im about to die. idk why i cant be like other guys who gets the girls why does life have to be like this for me. i hate my life and i hate what that girl done to me. i was already depressed and she made things worse. i was so happy around her it made me forget my troubles but nothing ever goes right for me. i hate myself for being so ugly and stupid i just wanna end everything especially this chest pain. seeing her with another guy is gonna destroy me completely and i know that time is coming soon...idk i hate my life...i hate that *****...i hate those guys that call and text her i ******* hate everything why cant these ******* be punished by god? is there a god? what the fresia i quit.......