grundel70
Well-known member
My body is shutting down on me. I am in constant pain, and nothing I do resolves it. Just sitting here my whole body aches...my back hurts so bad, my left shoulder, my right hand is cramped up, and both of my knees creek with pain. I can't work out anymore...hell I can't barely get up and walk anymore...
My Dr can find nothing wrong with me short of a back spasm and a dislocated shoulder. The pain meds don't help. All they do is make me sick. Everyday it seems to get worse and worse.
This pain is taking its toll on me emotionally. I feel so empty, like all of the joy, happiness, and love that was in my heart was sucked away, and replaced by this aching throbbing pain. I feel so lonely now...like even my body and spirit has abandoned me. I feel like I am just some nasty, ugly, discusting sore on the world. Something that needs to be purged. If that would releive this pain, then so be it.
I am sorry, I know I always used to speak of being positive, of not being afraid, of conquering your problems. I try to take my own advice, but I am just too weak now to do so. Take any advice I may have given with a grain of salt...since it doesn't seem to work well on me Please forgive me for my failure.
The only advice I have left to give is for those of you who are overweight...take care of yourself now. Excercise! Eat healthy. put down those snacks. Don't eat that burger. You will pay for it later. For me it is too late. I have lost 90 lbs (yes, 90 lbs) since august, and it has done nothing to ease the physical problems that carrying all of this extra wieght for over 30 years has done. It may be too late for me, but for you it is not! Please...don't become me. Don't become an insulin dependant diabetic. Don't be in a position where loosing almost a full person's weight is not enough to help with your health. Let my failure be a lesson to you all.
For those of you who are healthy, stay that way! Work out! Walk instead of driving. Ride a bike. Go for a run. Play physical games. watch what you eat.
Please...
No one needs to suffer like this. I brought this on myself, and I now the time has come for me to pay for all of my youthful indulgences. I don't have enough to pay for it...I fear it will take more than I can give.
I love you all, from the bottom of my heart.
My Dr can find nothing wrong with me short of a back spasm and a dislocated shoulder. The pain meds don't help. All they do is make me sick. Everyday it seems to get worse and worse.
This pain is taking its toll on me emotionally. I feel so empty, like all of the joy, happiness, and love that was in my heart was sucked away, and replaced by this aching throbbing pain. I feel so lonely now...like even my body and spirit has abandoned me. I feel like I am just some nasty, ugly, discusting sore on the world. Something that needs to be purged. If that would releive this pain, then so be it.
I am sorry, I know I always used to speak of being positive, of not being afraid, of conquering your problems. I try to take my own advice, but I am just too weak now to do so. Take any advice I may have given with a grain of salt...since it doesn't seem to work well on me Please forgive me for my failure.
The only advice I have left to give is for those of you who are overweight...take care of yourself now. Excercise! Eat healthy. put down those snacks. Don't eat that burger. You will pay for it later. For me it is too late. I have lost 90 lbs (yes, 90 lbs) since august, and it has done nothing to ease the physical problems that carrying all of this extra wieght for over 30 years has done. It may be too late for me, but for you it is not! Please...don't become me. Don't become an insulin dependant diabetic. Don't be in a position where loosing almost a full person's weight is not enough to help with your health. Let my failure be a lesson to you all.
For those of you who are healthy, stay that way! Work out! Walk instead of driving. Ride a bike. Go for a run. Play physical games. watch what you eat.
Please...
No one needs to suffer like this. I brought this on myself, and I now the time has come for me to pay for all of my youthful indulgences. I don't have enough to pay for it...I fear it will take more than I can give.
I love you all, from the bottom of my heart.