The Writer
Well-known member
This might be a bit strange, but what the hell, I might as well say it.
I suffer from some sort of social fear, I mean even here I am afraid to post, thinking that perhaps you guys will hate me. Logically I know this is not so, but it’s like I cant help being a bit scared anyway.
I suppose what I wanted to just get out was that I found this amazing guy, the most wonderful thing ever, and we had a great time for about a month… Not really a relationship and seeing as it wasn’t, he didn’t even have to break it up… he merely had to stop inviting me around.
Funny… how when you’ve been sad for so long, at the first sight of happiness you get addicted to it right away. Now it’s like all the loneliness of the past has returned, just worse… I hate heartaches… Worst thing is that he actually hasn’t asked me to get the hell out of his life, so I’m not actually completely sure what’s going on...
A good friend of mine told me the other night to “stop talking to the ******, because you will keep being in love with him and he is just NOT” I don’t quite know why that hurt me so much, but it did! I don’t enjoy having the phrase “in love” used about me in this situation… Love is huge… I just found in humiliating in a way… This friend has so much confidence, its ridicules! And then he laughs at me for being insecure and though I don’t want to admit it, it offends me.
Thanks for listening…
I suffer from some sort of social fear, I mean even here I am afraid to post, thinking that perhaps you guys will hate me. Logically I know this is not so, but it’s like I cant help being a bit scared anyway.
I suppose what I wanted to just get out was that I found this amazing guy, the most wonderful thing ever, and we had a great time for about a month… Not really a relationship and seeing as it wasn’t, he didn’t even have to break it up… he merely had to stop inviting me around.
Funny… how when you’ve been sad for so long, at the first sight of happiness you get addicted to it right away. Now it’s like all the loneliness of the past has returned, just worse… I hate heartaches… Worst thing is that he actually hasn’t asked me to get the hell out of his life, so I’m not actually completely sure what’s going on...
A good friend of mine told me the other night to “stop talking to the ******, because you will keep being in love with him and he is just NOT” I don’t quite know why that hurt me so much, but it did! I don’t enjoy having the phrase “in love” used about me in this situation… Love is huge… I just found in humiliating in a way… This friend has so much confidence, its ridicules! And then he laughs at me for being insecure and though I don’t want to admit it, it offends me.
Thanks for listening…