I think I know what you mean.
Like in limbo. Your not unhappy but theirs nothing getting you exited.
Like you don't wont to die but theirs nothing worth living for ether.
That's kinda how I feel about life.
I would like to go on holiday. I have the money to ATM but nobody to go with.
Its not just about enjoying a holiday but it gives you something to look forward too.
And gives you a break from all the mundane stuff in life.
And makes you appreciate your own bed and home more when you get back
It sounds to me like you just need something to look forward too.
Most people I guss do look forward to there GF or BF coming home at the end of the day. Its difficult sometimes when you dont have that.
You seem to be coping OK. I think your stronger then you know
Maybe its worth a vist to the doctors just to make sure the meds are doing what they should?
Somthimes I have to wonder weather I am happy or just quiterly content.
There is a lot to be said about being humble about life.
But there is a fine line between being humble and not fighting fior better