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WallflowerGirl83
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I keep crying in my room, I don't talk to anyone cause I feel like I'll upset everyone and people will run away. Anytime I get close to someone... I get scared that one day they'll just leave my side and I'll be all alone again. My mind keeps racing with thought after thought.... little flashes of memories. Than I remember horrible things that were said to me and times when I was happy....
Blowing bubbles when I was younger...
Than I remember kids all laughing and I'm alone by myself not knowing when there all laughing about.
The time my ex boyfriend yelled at me and ignored my phone calls.
My real father hitting my mother and being confused by it.
Recently I've been staring off into space and just staring and staring... and I feel nothing. No emotions, just numbness. I wonder why people even like me... people may talk to me but I wonder why do they even waste there time. I feel like a huge failure, like I'm nothing....
And than I remember why I feel like this.... my ex bf emotional abused me and treated me like I'm nothing. And I'm so angry I stayed. I'm angry at myself for letting people hurt me and make fun of me. I'm angry for my father abusing me..... I feel like noone really hears when I'm talking. People talk over me, I feel like I'm not heard. I cry really hard sometimes and vanish from sight cause I feel like a failure. I've been crying so much right now.... and it's really scaring me.
Blowing bubbles when I was younger...
Than I remember kids all laughing and I'm alone by myself not knowing when there all laughing about.
The time my ex boyfriend yelled at me and ignored my phone calls.
My real father hitting my mother and being confused by it.
Recently I've been staring off into space and just staring and staring... and I feel nothing. No emotions, just numbness. I wonder why people even like me... people may talk to me but I wonder why do they even waste there time. I feel like a huge failure, like I'm nothing....
And than I remember why I feel like this.... my ex bf emotional abused me and treated me like I'm nothing. And I'm so angry I stayed. I'm angry at myself for letting people hurt me and make fun of me. I'm angry for my father abusing me..... I feel like noone really hears when I'm talking. People talk over me, I feel like I'm not heard. I cry really hard sometimes and vanish from sight cause I feel like a failure. I've been crying so much right now.... and it's really scaring me.