Bam111
Abandon your fear. Look forward.
you just have to give it time, it won't come right away because you are feeling these emotions of grief and depression, it's understandable but if you dwell in these emotions, it is like a fire it will consume and burn you down to ashes. Just like learning something new it takes time and commitment your mind and your heart are battling over these emotions you need time to process these things then (in time) you will learn to cope with them if you don't they can consume you, Stay positive (it's not easy) but if you dwell it's no better than learning to cope, understand and except (remember that your children love you and I bet they wouldn't want you to suffer just like you don't want them to suffer.) So be strong for them you are the dad they look up to you for strength and guidance be their strength...