hey knightsofwar, i agree school sucks i'll be starting my last year in august. It is an important thing to try and stay busy. And people can be jerks and yes jerks desrve to be beaten to a bloody pulp then steralized so they can't reproduce, but even if they harass you try not to stoop to their level, they're just trying to get you to break. It's unfortunate but what I've seen in life, even if someone is being taunted, people are still going to think they're a werido when they blow up. When someone is making fun of another person, they never intend for it to hurt as much as it does, so a lot of times they think a person is overeacting when they lose it. One time this person in class was bothering me, and i was in a bad mood, so i just told them to shut up, and everyone stared at me like i was crazy, because it came out a lot louder and meaner than i intended.
Try and find a way to channel your anger to something else. Somnething like running or just punching a bag really helps and if you get your endorphins going you'll feel a lot better. And one thing about exercise, that i sometimes have trouble with is just getting started, actually getting up and start running, is the hardest part for me. But once you get going and find a good pace you won't want to stop, my favorite thing is just wandering around the city on my bike while listening to my ipod and i can go for miles. And also if you can, sometimes i can lucid dream, and the last time i did i punched this one chick in the head, so it was kinda like the real thing.
I hope things can get better, eventually they will
so hang on
and when i'm feeling down nothing makes me feel better than a fluffly little ball of fluff
aren't they cute
anyways i hope you feel better
peace