Ya know, I used to have ideals. I used to believe it was proper to stand when a woman entered the room if you were sitting, or that you should hold a door for a woman, even if she isn't your lover. That you should be gentle with a woman, always tell her she is beautiful, even when she isn't wearing make up. Most of all, I used to believe that you should treasure a woman, and provide for her, and make her feel as though she is the water you drink and the food you eat, and that without her, you'd be nothing. I used to believe all that.
I was a fool.
I'm not saying I was a fool for being this way with woman, I am a fool for believing in love. You want the truth Sweetviki? Love is a monster, a T-rex that devours everything in it's path because it's never full. It will eat everything you have, your friends, your family, your self esteem, your hopes, your dreams, and finally your very will. Then when there is nothing left, it stomps off to find more food, leaving you with nothing, absolutly nothing.
It's funny, there is an organism that acts the same way. Ya know, use's up everything there is to offer, then when it destroy's it, it moves on. It's called a Virus. That's love alright, a disease.
Don't believe me? Then look around Sweetviki, look at all the members of this forum, of any lonely forum, or personals. It's full of people who are alone and depressed, who are victim's of the disease. Night after night, checking there emails, hoping someone cares, hoping to find the reason they exist, hoping to starve off the pain just a little longer. Love did it to them, even those who never experienced it, just the desire for it is enough to infect them.
No one cares Sweetviki, your right, all they want is whats in your pants. The majority of the men on this planet don't view you as a human or a woman, as someone to love and respect, they view you as meat, you mean as much to them as a cow does. But maybe you'll find a guy to treat you good, for awhile, then you'll get married and eventually the love will grow cold. You won't have sex often, and when you do you'll both be thinking of other people. You'll envy other couples who you think have a better relationship then you. Then you'll either get a divorce and hate each other but be forced to see each other because of joint custody of the kids, or you'll stay married because your used to the other person, kinda like a baby is used to a binky. But you'll both desire other people all the time, maybe even succumb a few times.
Just ask any married person. See how madly in love they are after a few years of wedded bliss.
That's love Sweetviki, that's the disease that you suffer from. But there is good news, your young, which means you can recover. You can be cured. My advice, just satisfy your urges and be happy with that. Don't expect anything, take what you need and move on. You'll be better off for it, trust me. If your an attractive girl, then the world is yours for the taking, play the game, use what you have, and you'll never have to worry about anything. You don't need love, hate is better, it fuels you, gives you purpose, strength. Embrace that and there is nothing you cannot achive, you'll have mastered true power. And once you have power, you'll have understanding. Then you'll know that love is a worthless and foolish pursuit and that the only thing that matters is power. It's what this world is all about, and your a fool if you think otherwise.