Ghost Rider
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So my life has over the past few years has definitely changed dramatically, I thought that I was lonely and depressed before, but my situation now is lookin bleaker and bleaker everyday.
Let me start off by saying I used to go to this site when I was in high school because I was lonely but little did I know, it was just the beginning. I'm 20 now.
I've had GAD since I was 15. It was debilitating until I was able to gain control over my mind. I also have this joint issue that makes everyday a mental and physical battle. I was told that my quality of life would be diminished because my joints were grinding away faster then usual. This really took a toll on me, realizing my mentality was just a mere facade. I lived for the moment from then on. I have been a hardcore pot smoker for years, it in itself is an issue but it's something that Im working on in my own time. I had a few best friends but things are changing fast and they're not around anymore. I used to be somewhat of a social person but even then I always felt distant and alone. I have had very short relationships with women because I tend to only attract and connect with women that have a lot of life issues or baggage. I have yet to find a "normal" relationship with someone or even a partner that genuinely cares for me. The last relationship I was in was devastating, in short I made a fool out of myself because I loved the wrong person, simple as that.
A year ago, I got into a car accident and now I live everyday in pain. My life has literally took a turn for the worst. I do realize how fortunate I am to be alive, but at the end of the day no amount of money is worth living life in pain. Which is a notion that I've thought about for a while. I know we're supposed to be grown up and able to deal with change, but what makes life worth living if ur already lonely an depressed and on top of that add pain to your everyday life. It makes trying to create a normal life next to impossible.
I'm not writing here for sympathy or anything. I just really need to get it out there.
The teathers of reality are far too much, but I do realize this is life, if we're not dead then we just have to live and make the best out of everyday. But ****, it's easy to say
Let me start off by saying I used to go to this site when I was in high school because I was lonely but little did I know, it was just the beginning. I'm 20 now.
I've had GAD since I was 15. It was debilitating until I was able to gain control over my mind. I also have this joint issue that makes everyday a mental and physical battle. I was told that my quality of life would be diminished because my joints were grinding away faster then usual. This really took a toll on me, realizing my mentality was just a mere facade. I lived for the moment from then on. I have been a hardcore pot smoker for years, it in itself is an issue but it's something that Im working on in my own time. I had a few best friends but things are changing fast and they're not around anymore. I used to be somewhat of a social person but even then I always felt distant and alone. I have had very short relationships with women because I tend to only attract and connect with women that have a lot of life issues or baggage. I have yet to find a "normal" relationship with someone or even a partner that genuinely cares for me. The last relationship I was in was devastating, in short I made a fool out of myself because I loved the wrong person, simple as that.
A year ago, I got into a car accident and now I live everyday in pain. My life has literally took a turn for the worst. I do realize how fortunate I am to be alive, but at the end of the day no amount of money is worth living life in pain. Which is a notion that I've thought about for a while. I know we're supposed to be grown up and able to deal with change, but what makes life worth living if ur already lonely an depressed and on top of that add pain to your everyday life. It makes trying to create a normal life next to impossible.
I'm not writing here for sympathy or anything. I just really need to get it out there.
The teathers of reality are far too much, but I do realize this is life, if we're not dead then we just have to live and make the best out of everyday. But ****, it's easy to say