Dark_Poet
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Hello
This will probably be one of the scariest things I've done in quite sometime.
Its really difficult for me to admit that I like girls.
Most males might find that strange.....
I'm afraid of being laughed at again.
I had a traumatic experience when I was younger, and I never really got past it. Girls were not the kindest people to me if I had any romantic interest in them. Friendship wise, pretty much everyone liked me.
I was just never good enough for anything beyond that.
Now I'm a little better. I use to get angry at myself for looking at a girl and finding her attractive. I feel so dirty and like a pervert. A male pig if you will.
I get really scared, and I just can't do it.
Even if I say a 3 letter word I feel ashamed of myself.
I know its really weird.... I'm just glad I'm not like my Dad who when he found out I finally made a friend in real life, told me to sleep with her.
She's 63 years old and i'm 25!
Its still impossible to be in a room with a pretty girl.
That is my nightmare to be honest.
The funny thing is, I think girls make the best friends.
On top of that, I drive myself nuts crying and hurting over wanting someone to like me so bad. I know its common on all. I too have never had a girlfriend.
I'm not trying to harp on that though, the point of this, was to try and admit that I like girls in front of a group. Unless I delete this, you'll all know my secret. Honestly, I like people to think that I'm incapable of finding anyone attractive.
The really funny thing is, I have yet to see one ugly person on here.
The friends that I have that are girls, you really scared me to death in the beginning. (hehe) Not because you did anything wrong, but because you're female, and then I saw pictures and realized that i'm talking to someone that looks like you? But you've never made me feel bad about it, and I want to think everyone for that.
I've said this a million times before.
This website is amazing. It is full of some of the kindest people I've ever met, and I can't thank you enough for being so great!
Thanks for listening.
Take care and have a wonderful day!
This will probably be one of the scariest things I've done in quite sometime.
Its really difficult for me to admit that I like girls.
Most males might find that strange.....
I'm afraid of being laughed at again.
I had a traumatic experience when I was younger, and I never really got past it. Girls were not the kindest people to me if I had any romantic interest in them. Friendship wise, pretty much everyone liked me.
I was just never good enough for anything beyond that.
Now I'm a little better. I use to get angry at myself for looking at a girl and finding her attractive. I feel so dirty and like a pervert. A male pig if you will.
I get really scared, and I just can't do it.
Even if I say a 3 letter word I feel ashamed of myself.
I know its really weird.... I'm just glad I'm not like my Dad who when he found out I finally made a friend in real life, told me to sleep with her.
She's 63 years old and i'm 25!
Its still impossible to be in a room with a pretty girl.
That is my nightmare to be honest.
The funny thing is, I think girls make the best friends.
On top of that, I drive myself nuts crying and hurting over wanting someone to like me so bad. I know its common on all. I too have never had a girlfriend.
I'm not trying to harp on that though, the point of this, was to try and admit that I like girls in front of a group. Unless I delete this, you'll all know my secret. Honestly, I like people to think that I'm incapable of finding anyone attractive.
The really funny thing is, I have yet to see one ugly person on here.
The friends that I have that are girls, you really scared me to death in the beginning. (hehe) Not because you did anything wrong, but because you're female, and then I saw pictures and realized that i'm talking to someone that looks like you? But you've never made me feel bad about it, and I want to think everyone for that.
I've said this a million times before.
This website is amazing. It is full of some of the kindest people I've ever met, and I can't thank you enough for being so great!
Thanks for listening.
Take care and have a wonderful day!