I've never felt lonely before but since I'm at college struggling to show my self up to people I have almost no friends and I'm lonely. When I started college I wanted to change what I was. I was a wimp I mean I never did anything special just lived my life without doubt and when I failed to go to my dream university I started to look things differently. First thing came to think about was friends. I blamed my failure to them because I cared for them excessively. So, I decided not to be like them and I found myself becoming similar to them. I changed the way I talk, act and do stuffs that I wouldn't do when I was in highschool. Now, I lose the connections with my high school buddies and I feel lost about just who I really am and feel very depressed, sad and lonely when I found myself alone in a place where all others get together and talk especially in canteen and restaurant around college and sometimes I can't control my anger whenever I feel down thinking about a perticular person back in highschool who I think ruined my dream college plan and it makes me even more angry when I found out he is coming to my college to study. Now I am lost and lonely. I want someone to hold on to and just be my friend. I miss sharing fun stuffs and able to communicate to someone that I really feel connected to. Now I can barely imagine the memory of it. What should I do....