Yeah, I registered in November and this is my first post haha.
So my story. I'm 50 years old, I have a 24y/o daughter, 3 grandbabies and I've never been married. My daughters mother left me for another guy just before we were going to get married, when my daughter was 3 months old. After that I told myself that would never happen again. The last time I had a girlfriend was in 2002. She was perfect but by then I was so depressed I just wanted to be alone all the time. When I left her I said if I couldn't make it work with that girl then I may as well give up. Haven't had a date since. I was a 6 pack a night guy (drinking alone of course) for years until 2003 then I quit and haven't touched alcohol since. That improved my life but didn't get me out of my shell.
I was in the army for 24 years and retired in 2010. I've lost touch with every army buddy I ever had. Then I moved home to Dallas and managed a motorcycle shop. That was cool but I'm such a loner that I never really made any friends, I never hung out with anyone.
Four years ago I moved to N.C. to be near my daughter and I'll never leave her again. I haven't worked and live comfortably off my pension. But this is a small town with not much to do (and no cool jobs), and since I don't work I don't have any way to meet people. Not that I would hang out with anybody anyway. I am the main babysitter for my grandkids and have them multiple times a week. Besides them I have absolutely no life. I don't have one single buddy and spend my days watching television and riding my bike alone. That's it.
Now I feel like my life is frozen in time. Besides being a grandad I have no purpose. I have nothing to stress about, I can live fine and never have to work another day, but the sick feeling in the stomach depression is creeping in again. I keep hoping that someday a girl will pop up in my life and sweep me off of my feet. But I know that will never happen when I don't even go out anywhere. I don't even know why I'm typing all this but I guess if anyone can relate this seems to be the place.
So my story. I'm 50 years old, I have a 24y/o daughter, 3 grandbabies and I've never been married. My daughters mother left me for another guy just before we were going to get married, when my daughter was 3 months old. After that I told myself that would never happen again. The last time I had a girlfriend was in 2002. She was perfect but by then I was so depressed I just wanted to be alone all the time. When I left her I said if I couldn't make it work with that girl then I may as well give up. Haven't had a date since. I was a 6 pack a night guy (drinking alone of course) for years until 2003 then I quit and haven't touched alcohol since. That improved my life but didn't get me out of my shell.
I was in the army for 24 years and retired in 2010. I've lost touch with every army buddy I ever had. Then I moved home to Dallas and managed a motorcycle shop. That was cool but I'm such a loner that I never really made any friends, I never hung out with anyone.
Four years ago I moved to N.C. to be near my daughter and I'll never leave her again. I haven't worked and live comfortably off my pension. But this is a small town with not much to do (and no cool jobs), and since I don't work I don't have any way to meet people. Not that I would hang out with anybody anyway. I am the main babysitter for my grandkids and have them multiple times a week. Besides them I have absolutely no life. I don't have one single buddy and spend my days watching television and riding my bike alone. That's it.
Now I feel like my life is frozen in time. Besides being a grandad I have no purpose. I have nothing to stress about, I can live fine and never have to work another day, but the sick feeling in the stomach depression is creeping in again. I keep hoping that someday a girl will pop up in my life and sweep me off of my feet. But I know that will never happen when I don't even go out anywhere. I don't even know why I'm typing all this but I guess if anyone can relate this seems to be the place.