seems I fit most of these criteria of the insane. http://ezinearticles.com/?How-To-Become-Insane&id=40856
1) Leave a hundred decisions unmade, hanging there in your mind.
2) Try to fit way too much into your days.
3) Take on too many unnecessary responsibilities.
4) Damage your brain with too many drugs and alcohol.
5) Isolate yourself from the world.
6) Dwell on the horrible aspects of your life or of the world.
7) Eat poorly and stay up all night.
8) Refuse to accept the things you cannot change.
9) Hang onto the past too tightly.
10) Let fear make your important decisions for you.
1) Leave a hundred decisions unmade, hanging there in your mind.
2) Try to fit way too much into your days.
3) Take on too many unnecessary responsibilities.
4) Damage your brain with too many drugs and alcohol.
5) Isolate yourself from the world.
6) Dwell on the horrible aspects of your life or of the world.
7) Eat poorly and stay up all night.
8) Refuse to accept the things you cannot change.
9) Hang onto the past too tightly.
10) Let fear make your important decisions for you.