So for the past six years, I've been going to bed in the "morning" on a daily (nightly) basis. It seems I'm unable to go to bed before 1am, and many times I'll spend several hours doing useless things until I finally go to bed at 4am, pissed off that this keeps happening. -_-
It's odd, because every time I go to bed, I tell myself, "This is never going to happen again!"
And, of course, it happens every night.
Now, it's not quite so bad when I went to bed late because of homework. Because then I'd at least have a tangible factor to attribute this to - a purpose (and thus some consolation).
But most of the times it's just because I don't want to go to bed, feeling as if I'm cutting my life short by spending time unconscious instead of fully awake. Of course, prolonged sleep deprivation will probably shorten my life rather than extend it, but this cognitive reasoning doesn't seem to affect me. =/
And, of course, the loneliest times of my life are late at night when it seems the whole world is asleep, and I'm left alone in the secluded depths of the nocturnal world. It very much sucks. ><
So, this thread is for all those who can't go to sleep at night. Especially if you're regrettably awake at this very moment!
It's odd, because every time I go to bed, I tell myself, "This is never going to happen again!"
And, of course, it happens every night.
Now, it's not quite so bad when I went to bed late because of homework. Because then I'd at least have a tangible factor to attribute this to - a purpose (and thus some consolation).
But most of the times it's just because I don't want to go to bed, feeling as if I'm cutting my life short by spending time unconscious instead of fully awake. Of course, prolonged sleep deprivation will probably shorten my life rather than extend it, but this cognitive reasoning doesn't seem to affect me. =/
And, of course, the loneliest times of my life are late at night when it seems the whole world is asleep, and I'm left alone in the secluded depths of the nocturnal world. It very much sucks. ><
So, this thread is for all those who can't go to sleep at night. Especially if you're regrettably awake at this very moment!