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I am feeling depress, I just had a crappy birthday, I am 16, I got nothing but just one text message from a very good and only friend, she is from the internet though. I had been a constant target for bullies almost my whole life, bullies were never a problem when I was in kindergarden to year 3 but when I was in year 4 things turn for the worse.
I migrated from Singapore to Australia and since then everyone picked on me and I had no friends but this stop 2 years ago.
The bullying stop because I went to a different school but the bullying gave me a cold unfriendly shell I hide in all the time. I do not like showing the real me at all..
So I turn to the net for friends and found people there to be friendlier although this is great I kinda hate myself for not having a social life at all in the real life but just having a social life on the virtual world. I think people who live alone are lucky, I hate the idea of my parents being in the house when I am on the computer it is embarrassing for me that they to know my computer is my life and to add to that I hate it when they talk to their friends about me, about how regularly I go out and stuff, I hate it when my parents say “oh he doesn’t get out at all” and their friends would than go on and on about their son/daughter going out and spending money its humiliating for them to know.
I have a serious social problem, I spent all my days in my house on my bed feeling depress or go on the net. These are my only memories
For 7 years I have been a lonely person I seriously fail to see this situation going to improve at all. I would hate my 18th birthday because I know it would be worse or be the same as my other birthdays, boring lonely and no one to celebrate it with. What makes it even more depressing is that I know everyone is gonna have such a great time on their birthday celebrating with their friends.
Anyway after all these years of people bullying me I have a fear of people, I rarely go out and my parents want me to find a job, I just cant bring myself to get a job. My parents would then make me feel guilty of not meeting their expectations
Life is so unfair, people like me who got bullied properly never will get over it and will feel honeysuckle for the rest of their lives, but people who bully will continue to be successful have many friends and be free of their guilty conscience.
This rant might sound abit childish, I apologize for it. I am only 16
I migrated from Singapore to Australia and since then everyone picked on me and I had no friends but this stop 2 years ago.
The bullying stop because I went to a different school but the bullying gave me a cold unfriendly shell I hide in all the time. I do not like showing the real me at all..
So I turn to the net for friends and found people there to be friendlier although this is great I kinda hate myself for not having a social life at all in the real life but just having a social life on the virtual world. I think people who live alone are lucky, I hate the idea of my parents being in the house when I am on the computer it is embarrassing for me that they to know my computer is my life and to add to that I hate it when they talk to their friends about me, about how regularly I go out and stuff, I hate it when my parents say “oh he doesn’t get out at all” and their friends would than go on and on about their son/daughter going out and spending money its humiliating for them to know.
I have a serious social problem, I spent all my days in my house on my bed feeling depress or go on the net. These are my only memories
For 7 years I have been a lonely person I seriously fail to see this situation going to improve at all. I would hate my 18th birthday because I know it would be worse or be the same as my other birthdays, boring lonely and no one to celebrate it with. What makes it even more depressing is that I know everyone is gonna have such a great time on their birthday celebrating with their friends.
Anyway after all these years of people bullying me I have a fear of people, I rarely go out and my parents want me to find a job, I just cant bring myself to get a job. My parents would then make me feel guilty of not meeting their expectations
Life is so unfair, people like me who got bullied properly never will get over it and will feel honeysuckle for the rest of their lives, but people who bully will continue to be successful have many friends and be free of their guilty conscience.
This rant might sound abit childish, I apologize for it. I am only 16