DayvanCowboy
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I really envy the people who are close to my age and have never experienced a real relationship with someone. They still have a clean sheet and I hope they get to experience something great with someone in the near future.
In less than a week it is going to be a year exactly since I have gone out with someone who was not a family member. Staying home all the time is not fun since I do not get along with the people I have cared and tried to do so much for everyday. I don't understand how giving so much time and giving it my all rewards me with being more isolated and feeling more down.
Two years ago I met someone who changed everything for me. We went out as much as we could and had so much fun. It was nice to have a friend that was willing to do different things instead of the usual stuff I used to do with my ex-group of friends who just drank beer and talked about hockey. A month into this friendship things started happening to make me believe something more would evolve between us. This girl was someone that I never thought would take an interest in me like that, but she always did show some signs. So we talked about it and decided we should give it a go. Big mistake. Things got so weird and she suddenly started staying home on the days that we would usually meet each other. Then she became sick with bronchitis and I did everything I could to take care of her and make sure she was feeling a little better. She decided it would be good to spend the night together on Dec. 23, 2006 since we haven't spent many nights together. Worst ******* night ever. When I met her that night I seen a side of her I never knew she had. She was a little drunk and decided to stay as far away from me so I just sat down in a corner and talked to her. I knew she was feeling like she did wrong planning this and I was not angry with her. I wasn't angry until she let loose, she mentioned how she faked her bronchitis the whole time to stay away from me and she thought I was 'weird'. She said nothing will ever happen between us and she never wanted to have a boyfriend. She left me alone that night and I never heard from her again. Two months later I find out she has a boyfriend and they have been together ever since.
With the other things that have occurred in my life, the worst always happened during the month of December. During that specific month my grandmother almost died, I got into a head on collision with a drunk driver, and the one best things I thought I had going turned to be the opposite. I became so depressed and I had no one to talk to. My friends grew tension towards me because I changed and I lost them too. I also used to have a real nice job and they wanted to help me, but it was useless. I lost it all and I quit my job. I couldn't do nothing anymore.
(taking a break now, part 2 coming up)
In less than a week it is going to be a year exactly since I have gone out with someone who was not a family member. Staying home all the time is not fun since I do not get along with the people I have cared and tried to do so much for everyday. I don't understand how giving so much time and giving it my all rewards me with being more isolated and feeling more down.
Two years ago I met someone who changed everything for me. We went out as much as we could and had so much fun. It was nice to have a friend that was willing to do different things instead of the usual stuff I used to do with my ex-group of friends who just drank beer and talked about hockey. A month into this friendship things started happening to make me believe something more would evolve between us. This girl was someone that I never thought would take an interest in me like that, but she always did show some signs. So we talked about it and decided we should give it a go. Big mistake. Things got so weird and she suddenly started staying home on the days that we would usually meet each other. Then she became sick with bronchitis and I did everything I could to take care of her and make sure she was feeling a little better. She decided it would be good to spend the night together on Dec. 23, 2006 since we haven't spent many nights together. Worst ******* night ever. When I met her that night I seen a side of her I never knew she had. She was a little drunk and decided to stay as far away from me so I just sat down in a corner and talked to her. I knew she was feeling like she did wrong planning this and I was not angry with her. I wasn't angry until she let loose, she mentioned how she faked her bronchitis the whole time to stay away from me and she thought I was 'weird'. She said nothing will ever happen between us and she never wanted to have a boyfriend. She left me alone that night and I never heard from her again. Two months later I find out she has a boyfriend and they have been together ever since.
With the other things that have occurred in my life, the worst always happened during the month of December. During that specific month my grandmother almost died, I got into a head on collision with a drunk driver, and the one best things I thought I had going turned to be the opposite. I became so depressed and I had no one to talk to. My friends grew tension towards me because I changed and I lost them too. I also used to have a real nice job and they wanted to help me, but it was useless. I lost it all and I quit my job. I couldn't do nothing anymore.
(taking a break now, part 2 coming up)