My dear,
Soon, very soon we will part our ways. You will go to one place, I will go to another. It's just that you look forward to this, while I...
We've known each other only as classmates. We never hung out or did anything together. For the last 5 years we sat in the same room from 8 in the morning until 2 or 3 in the afternoon. And yet we know almost nothing about each other. Well, that's not quite true. I know quite a lot about you, as I have been observing you for the last two years. That's all I allowed myself... Sit back and watch.
You are carefree, spontaneous, courageous, sociable, lovable... A complete opposite of me. Sometimes I wonder... We are all made of same things - our bones, our flesh, our brain cells. They are all the same. And yet we are completely different.
Opposites attract - it's a fact. Although people tend to think that only one's sex is the part that should be opposite. Female, male... It's the only difference that matters. Everyone overlooks that two people of the same sex could be so different...
I hate my country. Homophobia is the norm here. People live chained by the traditions, they are afraid open their mind to anything that threatens their world view. They only complain, mock, belittle others in order to feel better. Despite all the facts, they think that homosexuals are perverted, child molesting criminals who should be punished and kept isolated from the society.
Ain't that just the most ridiculous thing? And there's nothing I can do... But I know that they are wrong.
Knowing that does not allow me to express my feeling towards you. I don't know whether or not you agree with the public. I can just enjoy the last month of being in your presence, sometimes chatting with you about nothing, or lending you my glasses in class when you forget yours.
And so, we will part. Without being more than acquaintances. It's sad, when I think about it... But there's nothing I can do. I hope that you will find happiness in your life, I hope that you will succeed.
Also, I want to thank you. Without even doing anything you taught me how to deal with accepting things that are not in my power. You let me embrace solitude. I never longed for lots of friends. All I wanted was one friend, one close friend with whom I could freely share my experiences. But thanks to you I understood that I can be on my own and also live decently.
In those long hours of introspecting I decided not to give myself false hope; I decided to focus on choosing a life that fits me. That is why I will try to pursue a career in medicine. It requires lots of work, time, dedication. I will give myself to my work rather than pathetically dwell on the fact that I am alone. I am content with who I am - a solitary person.
If I ever sit somewhere with a warm cup of tea in my hands, blissfully watching the rain that I adore pour from the heavy, beautiful dark gray clouds... And a thought will come to my mind - a thought about you. I will not be saddened. I will fondly remember you, your delicate features, your charming laugh, your soothing voice... And I will once again thank you for teaching me so much... Even if you don't ever remember me, even if you completely forget about me. I will thank you.
And even if I will be telling myself that I am fine without you... I will know that you were the one.
Farewell, my dear, and be happy.
x
Soon, very soon we will part our ways. You will go to one place, I will go to another. It's just that you look forward to this, while I...
We've known each other only as classmates. We never hung out or did anything together. For the last 5 years we sat in the same room from 8 in the morning until 2 or 3 in the afternoon. And yet we know almost nothing about each other. Well, that's not quite true. I know quite a lot about you, as I have been observing you for the last two years. That's all I allowed myself... Sit back and watch.
You are carefree, spontaneous, courageous, sociable, lovable... A complete opposite of me. Sometimes I wonder... We are all made of same things - our bones, our flesh, our brain cells. They are all the same. And yet we are completely different.
Opposites attract - it's a fact. Although people tend to think that only one's sex is the part that should be opposite. Female, male... It's the only difference that matters. Everyone overlooks that two people of the same sex could be so different...
I hate my country. Homophobia is the norm here. People live chained by the traditions, they are afraid open their mind to anything that threatens their world view. They only complain, mock, belittle others in order to feel better. Despite all the facts, they think that homosexuals are perverted, child molesting criminals who should be punished and kept isolated from the society.
Ain't that just the most ridiculous thing? And there's nothing I can do... But I know that they are wrong.
Knowing that does not allow me to express my feeling towards you. I don't know whether or not you agree with the public. I can just enjoy the last month of being in your presence, sometimes chatting with you about nothing, or lending you my glasses in class when you forget yours.
And so, we will part. Without being more than acquaintances. It's sad, when I think about it... But there's nothing I can do. I hope that you will find happiness in your life, I hope that you will succeed.
Also, I want to thank you. Without even doing anything you taught me how to deal with accepting things that are not in my power. You let me embrace solitude. I never longed for lots of friends. All I wanted was one friend, one close friend with whom I could freely share my experiences. But thanks to you I understood that I can be on my own and also live decently.
In those long hours of introspecting I decided not to give myself false hope; I decided to focus on choosing a life that fits me. That is why I will try to pursue a career in medicine. It requires lots of work, time, dedication. I will give myself to my work rather than pathetically dwell on the fact that I am alone. I am content with who I am - a solitary person.
If I ever sit somewhere with a warm cup of tea in my hands, blissfully watching the rain that I adore pour from the heavy, beautiful dark gray clouds... And a thought will come to my mind - a thought about you. I will not be saddened. I will fondly remember you, your delicate features, your charming laugh, your soothing voice... And I will once again thank you for teaching me so much... Even if you don't ever remember me, even if you completely forget about me. I will thank you.
And even if I will be telling myself that I am fine without you... I will know that you were the one.
Farewell, my dear, and be happy.
x
