Hi,
Yes addictions are hard to break, one day you might give up but for now it's probably what you need. I'm addicted to smokes I smoke even if I don't want one and go through 30 a day, I need to give up because in 20 years or so I'm going to get emphysema and I couldn't handle that not being able to breathe.
I was addicted to alcohol and I had no choice but to cut back, my mum was pouring my alcohol down the drain that's how bad it had gotten to. So I went on a programme where you take nausea tablets to combat my addiction, in the end I cut back on my drinking and was allowed to drink at home again.
So I totally sympathise you, just make changes when you can and in your own time, no one can push you to give up and you won't until you are ready.
I had a gambling problem you wouldn't believe how much money I was putting into the machines, well I moved countries and didn't like the gambling machines that they had, they were'nt as fun and didn't pay out that much, when I lost my job I gave up only played them once since and that was 14 months ago, I only put in $2 and remembered how much I disliked playing them, so that was that, one addiction gone.
Only once did I start requiring an addiction to hashish it wasn't until I started to crave it that I knew it was a problem and your talking to someone who doesn't really do drugs on a weekly basis just went through a period. I was getting moody and withdrawal symptoms and angry, once I saw that sign that was it, I stopped, after that period I'd only have a puff of a joint twice or three times a year. I haven't had drugs in 3 1/2 years, don't think I'll ever take drugs again because when I did I'd get paranoid and anxiety, plus I'd freak out over minute things, would think the police were coming ecetera ecetera.
