TheSolitaryMan
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This is...so hard to explain, especially without sounding like I'm trying to pathetically inflate my ego. Believe me, if you'd seen me at my lowest ebbs of self-confidence, I'm more a specialist in self ego deflation
You know that "lonely in a crowd" thing? I've always had a profound understanding of that through experience.
Now I'm finding it's kinda the same when it comes to relationships, though it's self-imposed. I'm starting to realise that perhaps I'm not unlovable, it's just I'm not open to loving others.
I went on a night out earlier this evening for the first time in a while, just to go see some musicians. Was really good fun.
Throughout the night I managed to catch the eye of and flirt slightly (read: body language and gazes) with three pretty girls that seemed quite interested in me.
One in particular I had an intriguing moment with. I bumped into her in a doorway, she was shorter than me and had a sweet face. We shared this awesome eye-fixed glance close up, her mouth opened slightly...and then I had to move along. Sigh
I was talking with a friend recently, and she seemed to think from the impression I gave to her about it all that I was just not appearing attractive to women or something. I thought that sort of thing myself.
When I think about it rationally though, I realise that I can usually tell if a woman likes me quite soon after I meet them...and they actually seem to somewhat often.
The real problem seems to be there is so much choice, the opposite of what I used to think!
I'm so worried about finding the right girl, not offending anyone, being nice as I can to everyone that I just cannot seem to get the courage to ask a lady out, or actually do something more than share "the connection" with one :\
I've gone from thinking I'm totally hideous to a more realistic assessment that I'm not...and in fact it's more like I can't deal with women liking me. Really odd, but I just don't know what to do at all when it happens.
On the one hand, I'm surprised and flattered that these girls do show interest in me. Even amazed. But it's...so frustrating that I'm so useless at developing it.
Any help/advice/sympathy most appreciated. As long as it's not smug and along the lines of "get naked" or something, anyway!
You know that "lonely in a crowd" thing? I've always had a profound understanding of that through experience.
Now I'm finding it's kinda the same when it comes to relationships, though it's self-imposed. I'm starting to realise that perhaps I'm not unlovable, it's just I'm not open to loving others.
I went on a night out earlier this evening for the first time in a while, just to go see some musicians. Was really good fun.
Throughout the night I managed to catch the eye of and flirt slightly (read: body language and gazes) with three pretty girls that seemed quite interested in me.
One in particular I had an intriguing moment with. I bumped into her in a doorway, she was shorter than me and had a sweet face. We shared this awesome eye-fixed glance close up, her mouth opened slightly...and then I had to move along. Sigh
I was talking with a friend recently, and she seemed to think from the impression I gave to her about it all that I was just not appearing attractive to women or something. I thought that sort of thing myself.
When I think about it rationally though, I realise that I can usually tell if a woman likes me quite soon after I meet them...and they actually seem to somewhat often.
The real problem seems to be there is so much choice, the opposite of what I used to think!
I'm so worried about finding the right girl, not offending anyone, being nice as I can to everyone that I just cannot seem to get the courage to ask a lady out, or actually do something more than share "the connection" with one :\
I've gone from thinking I'm totally hideous to a more realistic assessment that I'm not...and in fact it's more like I can't deal with women liking me. Really odd, but I just don't know what to do at all when it happens.
On the one hand, I'm surprised and flattered that these girls do show interest in me. Even amazed. But it's...so frustrating that I'm so useless at developing it.
Any help/advice/sympathy most appreciated. As long as it's not smug and along the lines of "get naked" or something, anyway!