pandoraTheboss
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Hi, I'm Renae...
I'm 24 years old and split my time between my home town of Vernon, NJ and my boyfriend's house in Columbia, NJ. I am a full-time student, I am always told that I am incredibly attractive, I have a lot of friends and a very blessed and full life. However, it hasn't always been that way. I came here to read about loneliness because as someone who used to be very lonely I always want to understand the "phenomenon". For years I was without social contact, whether it be from crippling social anxiety, low confidence stemming from obesity or self-seclusion due to an international dating situation with a guy who lived time zones away. I escaped the loneliness, though, sometimes it still hits me if I spend a few days with too much time on my hands, but I am lucky to have a lot of people who want me around and appreciate me.
That being said...
I've been with Lucus for a year and a half now. The relationship started off as me being "the other woman", but he left the other girl and now I'm his main girlfriend. That isn't the issue. We have a very good relationship...communication is good, physical attraction is there, we have a good rapport, we can work together as a team. The romance used to be great, too. Now he's cut me off from sex and is hard-pressed to even touch me or tell me he loves me unless I initiate it. I know he's not disinterested as he makes every attempt to spend time with me and we still have a great time together. The foundation of the relationship is good, but it's lacking intimacy. He has a lot of psychological problems stemming from gender confusion and childhood sexual abuse and so sex can be very difficult for him. I get that...but I'm so lonely I'm talking to a bunch of guys on the side who have crushes on me even though I'm not into any of them. I look ******* great, I've been losing weight like mad and my hair looks banging...I can't figure it out. How do I re light the flame?
I'm 24 years old and split my time between my home town of Vernon, NJ and my boyfriend's house in Columbia, NJ. I am a full-time student, I am always told that I am incredibly attractive, I have a lot of friends and a very blessed and full life. However, it hasn't always been that way. I came here to read about loneliness because as someone who used to be very lonely I always want to understand the "phenomenon". For years I was without social contact, whether it be from crippling social anxiety, low confidence stemming from obesity or self-seclusion due to an international dating situation with a guy who lived time zones away. I escaped the loneliness, though, sometimes it still hits me if I spend a few days with too much time on my hands, but I am lucky to have a lot of people who want me around and appreciate me.
That being said...
I've been with Lucus for a year and a half now. The relationship started off as me being "the other woman", but he left the other girl and now I'm his main girlfriend. That isn't the issue. We have a very good relationship...communication is good, physical attraction is there, we have a good rapport, we can work together as a team. The romance used to be great, too. Now he's cut me off from sex and is hard-pressed to even touch me or tell me he loves me unless I initiate it. I know he's not disinterested as he makes every attempt to spend time with me and we still have a great time together. The foundation of the relationship is good, but it's lacking intimacy. He has a lot of psychological problems stemming from gender confusion and childhood sexual abuse and so sex can be very difficult for him. I get that...but I'm so lonely I'm talking to a bunch of guys on the side who have crushes on me even though I'm not into any of them. I look ******* great, I've been losing weight like mad and my hair looks banging...I can't figure it out. How do I re light the flame?