Can I really express my feelings in an online forum? Will faceless people really care? Truth is, I like being alone most of the time yet I've always desired having a few good friends, I would have even settled for one. I'm 41 years old and whenever someone talks about their experiences my stomach drops, knowing how little I've experienced in life, all the things I've missed out on and how alone I've always been. I think of how little I experienced growing up....when I mention this to others, I amaze them. Honestly, I don't have anyone to share what I'm feeling. I suppose this is why I joined this forum. I'm a loner and always have been yet the consequences of being a loner all my life has caused me many regrets. Perhaps I'm looking for solidarity...