I'm not a nerd, to me nerds are super smart people so I'm a geek. I'm into comic books, video games, collecting, drawing and writing. I don't get out much at all, I'm what you call an introvert, maybe a hermit (not a hobbit though I am shorter than the average bear).
So glad I found this forum, over the past five years I've had to deal with loneliness and these past few years it has really gotten me down at time. With the holidays coming and winter setting in I'm dreading the next few months. I work as a Store Manager in a small rental company, and with the economy the way it is the owner started laying off my part time help as of last year. It was not easy being at work all day long with very few customers then going home to my small one bedroom apartment. All of my friends are either (or have been) married and all have kids. I'm 35 so that really gets me down.
In my spare time I like to draw (super heroes) and write (fanfiction) and make customized action figures, like I said I'm a geek. Lately when I've been feeling down I will go to the local malls and wander around for awhile browsing (sometimes buying but I need to cut that out) just to be around people. I'm extremely shy so I try not to make eye contact, especially if I see a customer. That way I don't have to stop and make idle chit chat (too personal), it is easier to do at work since I'm talking to people about their projects.
After my last job, which was emotionally draining, I've had a hard time controlling my emotions when I get worked up. Sometimes I get angry but most of the time I get depressed to the point where I just want to sit down and cry (yeah kind of girly for a guy to do
). I have no one to really talk to around me. My only employee right now is a 15 year old student who is a really fun guy to have around. He's always happy, funny and has a lot of energy which for me is comforting to have around. Just to be around someone who is always smiling and doesn't really let life get to him or get him down, which is weird for a teenager (lol).
Okay, I think I've blabbered on long enough, I tend to do that sometimes. I like to talk, my poor customers when they get me on a topic sometimes I just don't want to let them leave. Which is funny since I try to avoid people in a public place.
So glad I found this forum, over the past five years I've had to deal with loneliness and these past few years it has really gotten me down at time. With the holidays coming and winter setting in I'm dreading the next few months. I work as a Store Manager in a small rental company, and with the economy the way it is the owner started laying off my part time help as of last year. It was not easy being at work all day long with very few customers then going home to my small one bedroom apartment. All of my friends are either (or have been) married and all have kids. I'm 35 so that really gets me down.
In my spare time I like to draw (super heroes) and write (fanfiction) and make customized action figures, like I said I'm a geek. Lately when I've been feeling down I will go to the local malls and wander around for awhile browsing (sometimes buying but I need to cut that out) just to be around people. I'm extremely shy so I try not to make eye contact, especially if I see a customer. That way I don't have to stop and make idle chit chat (too personal), it is easier to do at work since I'm talking to people about their projects.
After my last job, which was emotionally draining, I've had a hard time controlling my emotions when I get worked up. Sometimes I get angry but most of the time I get depressed to the point where I just want to sit down and cry (yeah kind of girly for a guy to do
). I have no one to really talk to around me. My only employee right now is a 15 year old student who is a really fun guy to have around. He's always happy, funny and has a lot of energy which for me is comforting to have around. Just to be around someone who is always smiling and doesn't really let life get to him or get him down, which is weird for a teenager (lol).Okay, I think I've blabbered on long enough, I tend to do that sometimes. I like to talk, my poor customers when they get me on a topic sometimes I just don't want to let them leave.
Which is funny since I try to avoid people in a public place.
