Drcynic
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I've been alive for 22 years. I've never been hugged or kissed in a meaningful way. I have had no real time dating experience. I never dated. I tried, but no one ever wanted to date me. "You're nice and all, but I just don't see you as someone I could date" was usually the gentlest one.
Man, it was hard... It was lonely. All my life I just wanted love and affection. I turned to performing to get some sort of love from an audience... Anything at all for applause. Applause was like hugs and kisses.
Then I met my girlfriend online as a friend first, but it turned into real love. Real affection. I am lonely sometimes but being with her makes it easier. How I wish I knew what it was like to just hold her hand. Or anyone's hand before her. Not knowing anything makes it harder to imagine.
Man, it was hard... It was lonely. All my life I just wanted love and affection. I turned to performing to get some sort of love from an audience... Anything at all for applause. Applause was like hugs and kisses.
Then I met my girlfriend online as a friend first, but it turned into real love. Real affection. I am lonely sometimes but being with her makes it easier. How I wish I knew what it was like to just hold her hand. Or anyone's hand before her. Not knowing anything makes it harder to imagine.