Yeah it's kinda difficult to be ignored by 'normal' people as a screwed up kid. You have to see the others running and stuff and you'd just wonder how it feels like... freedom maybe? yeah surely. I remember once when I was sitting as usual daydreaming about the extraordinary and fairyland. Not another kid was there. I was alone. at 9 or 10 years old I was already used to sitting all alone in a corner daydreaming. That's what the break was for me.. an opportunity to daydream. So for some reason one day I couldnt just daydream about running around and stuff and actually wanted to live it, feel it. I wanted to run so badly and would have tried (tho I couldnt, really) if there was no one there (but there were kids and I was afraid to fall). I started to cry. Two of my classmates were going to the bathroom and they saw me. I wish they didnt. They came to me and asked me what's wrong. I just gave them the old 'something's my eyes' excuse but they guessed what's really going on. One of them even told me if I cry cuz I wanted to play and stuff. I said no it's just that something's my eyes. They asked me if I wanted them to stay with me. I said no it's just that some goddamn thing got into my **** eye. They gave up after a bit and left.
It's just one of the 1000... 'I feel all alone and different' stories that I have. After a while you just get used to the corner and actually feel comfortable in it. You get even disturbed is someone feel the need to come and talk to you.... umm I wanted to say something else that is really inspiring and all but forgot it, maybe later.
