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TheSkaFish

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So I'm not sure where to put this, but my Grandma's health got really bad since last weekend. I'm probably saying goodbye to her either today or tomorrow.

She'd been healthy most of her life, and was independent for a long time, well into her 80s. In fact, about ten years ago or so from around now, we were outside shoveling snow together. But she started having some major health issues as she got older, into the 90s. Still, she was a fighter, and she'd always pulled through in the past. More than once the doctors had given up on her, in fact almost everyone did except me and my Mom - and she pulled through for us. I'd been helping my Mom take care of her these past couple of years. I was visiting about once a week, usually staying on the weekends for a day or two. Mostly I'd help with yardwork, and also just keeping an eye on her, keeping her out of trouble, helping her walk, making her some tea and snacks, and just trying to provide some mental stimulation and companionship. But we were close all my life, before that. My brothers and I would often go over to her house on the weekends growing up, and she used to like to cook for us and entertain us by playing card and board games. And she always came over to our house for our birthdays, special occasions and other visits. She would sometimes watch our dog with me while everyone else was away. She just liked being involved in our lives. I hang on to those memories fondly.

I went back and forth about posting this at all, because I didn't want to seem like I'm looking for attention or sympathy or something. But, I'm pretty broken up. And I don't really have anyone to talk to right now.

I don't know what else to say. Just venting these feelings, I guess.
 
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I'm glad you posted it. It's inspiring. It's so good that you have been so involved in her life... It's heartwarming to know that some people care so much for their grandparents. You spent so much time taking care of her and appreciating her, and you should take comfort that she felt loved by you and appreciated your time.
 

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I'm glad you posted it. It's inspiring. It's so good that you have been so involved in her life... It's heartwarming to know that some people care so much for their grandparents. You spent so much time taking care of her and appreciating her, and you should take comfort that she felt loved by you and appreciated your time.

Thanks...I just wish it didn't have to end, and not like this either. I'd always hoped that if she had to go, she could have just floated off in her sleep, at home.

I factually knew this day had to come sometime, especially as she got deeper into her 90s and clearly wasn't as healthy as she used to be. But at the same time, I'm not prepared. I don't want her to go.

We did have a lot of good years together, I guess I will try to hang on to the happy memories.

Thanks for the kind words.
 

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I was close with my Nana too. I'm so sorry, it's obvious how much you love her and how much of a part she's played in your life over the years. Big hugs to you and your family. We are thinking of you.
 

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Honestly, this is so sad, loss is a terrible thing, it sounds like you have amazing memories and you are allowed to express anything you want, anyone who'd think something negative about you for posting this is just plain awful. I genuinely appreciate it, I can't thank you enough for sharing.
 

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I can only say it's amazing that your grandma was part of your life. None of my grandparents spent time with me. No kind words, no affection, they were like strangers staying in my home when they visited or when i visited them in their homes. When they died i was like whatever. Only when i became an adult i realized how wrong they were, how bad i had it. I wonder how i managed to raise myself right and survive childhood. I never knew how other kids had it with their grandparents. Others had it normal, good.
 

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I just wanted to say thank you to all who replied.

About an hour after I got there, she passed away. Before then, I'd told her about all the things we did together, that I look back on as happy memories - all the good things she did for me. And I told her about the things that I wish she could have seen me do in life. I told her that she wasn't alone, and that I loved her.

I hate that we're in this situation, it feels like some kind of bad dream. I wish there was something that someone could have done to save her. I'm heartbroken and I miss her so much already.
 

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You're so kind and caring. Wish there was something I could say, do, to make it easier. I am glad you updated. Have been wondering. I think it's so gracious that you were there with her and able to comfort her. I'm sorry, so sorry. You were both lucky and blessed to be family, in each other's lives.
 

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