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My first thread on the matter is here
http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=13118&page=1
I want to revisit this now because I have this massive crush on this amazingly wonderful man that is way out of my league. This is the first man in like, ever that I can actually picture myself being with forever. Nothing has happened between us, and likely never will, but I am having anxiety about the whole thing anyway, because well, thats just what I do.
Lets say the far chance I actually end up with this man I am crushing on. I respect him, honor him and am loyal to him in every way because he is such a wonderful man and deserves to be treated so. The likelyhood of anyone just flat out asking "were you a prostitute ever? Did you concentually fresia any family members ever?" is next to none and I know this. But what DOES happen quite often is somethign will come up in conversation due to something on TV or in the news or whatever. Something so seemingly benign like "Ew I would NEVER want to be with someone who had been a whore," clealry could open up a HUGE can of worms if you are talking to me. One time I was watching something on TV about hookers with my stepdad and in conversation he said "I have never known anyone who was a prostitute."
Anyway, so what if this (or any) wonderful man that I am totally into says something like he would never want to be with a woman who had sold herself? Aside from feeling obligated to tell him so that he is actually making that decision for himself as opposed to me not telling him and therefor making it for him, am I morally obligated to disclose that part of my past? Not telling when a comment like that is made is the same as lying right?
The only thing I can relate this too is men who are exneedle users. If he knew he was clean, or just had Hep C (which isnt sexually transmitted, Drs. dont even recommend that monogamous couples where one has hep. c use protection) I wouldnt necessarly expect him to come out and tell me this, but if I said something about wanting to know if a man had ever been a needle user to him, I would expect him to tell me. But on the other hand, I would kind of expect him to just tell me he was a needle user (though I would probably be able to tell anyway because of scarring).
Honestly I know I am overly sensitive to these things but there have been a few times when conversation or comments were sparked by a tv show or news article, and someone who I love dearly unknowingly hurt my feelings. Lets face it people say bad things about hookers, and people who fresia their stepsiblings are weirdos too. It would cut me deep for a man I love to say something in passing, he wouldnt know, it wouldnt be his fault. The thought of knowing that if he really knew me, he would be upset/disgusted with me... living like that would be horrible. So more and more the right thing to do seems to be to at the very least tell about selling myself. Though honestly I dont imagine any man actually being able to fully respect me after learning such a thing(s).
Also, Brian glad to hear it wasnt the herp
Stephanie your words did not fall on deaf ears
http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=13118&page=1
I want to revisit this now because I have this massive crush on this amazingly wonderful man that is way out of my league. This is the first man in like, ever that I can actually picture myself being with forever. Nothing has happened between us, and likely never will, but I am having anxiety about the whole thing anyway, because well, thats just what I do.
Lets say the far chance I actually end up with this man I am crushing on. I respect him, honor him and am loyal to him in every way because he is such a wonderful man and deserves to be treated so. The likelyhood of anyone just flat out asking "were you a prostitute ever? Did you concentually fresia any family members ever?" is next to none and I know this. But what DOES happen quite often is somethign will come up in conversation due to something on TV or in the news or whatever. Something so seemingly benign like "Ew I would NEVER want to be with someone who had been a whore," clealry could open up a HUGE can of worms if you are talking to me. One time I was watching something on TV about hookers with my stepdad and in conversation he said "I have never known anyone who was a prostitute."
Anyway, so what if this (or any) wonderful man that I am totally into says something like he would never want to be with a woman who had sold herself? Aside from feeling obligated to tell him so that he is actually making that decision for himself as opposed to me not telling him and therefor making it for him, am I morally obligated to disclose that part of my past? Not telling when a comment like that is made is the same as lying right?
The only thing I can relate this too is men who are exneedle users. If he knew he was clean, or just had Hep C (which isnt sexually transmitted, Drs. dont even recommend that monogamous couples where one has hep. c use protection) I wouldnt necessarly expect him to come out and tell me this, but if I said something about wanting to know if a man had ever been a needle user to him, I would expect him to tell me. But on the other hand, I would kind of expect him to just tell me he was a needle user (though I would probably be able to tell anyway because of scarring).
Honestly I know I am overly sensitive to these things but there have been a few times when conversation or comments were sparked by a tv show or news article, and someone who I love dearly unknowingly hurt my feelings. Lets face it people say bad things about hookers, and people who fresia their stepsiblings are weirdos too. It would cut me deep for a man I love to say something in passing, he wouldnt know, it wouldnt be his fault. The thought of knowing that if he really knew me, he would be upset/disgusted with me... living like that would be horrible. So more and more the right thing to do seems to be to at the very least tell about selling myself. Though honestly I dont imagine any man actually being able to fully respect me after learning such a thing(s).
Also, Brian glad to hear it wasnt the herp
Stephanie your words did not fall on deaf ears