JustJones
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I apologize for the long story but here goes......
ok, I'll start by telling you that i'm 25 and have never had a girlfriend
A couple of years ago I got sick of being depressed from liking girls that didn't like me back and somehow I managed to block it all out. I don't know how I did it but somehow I completely repressed my feelings about women and for those two years I felt content and relatively happy.
Recently, I met a wonderful Korean girl at uni. I found everything about her completely mesmerizing and after talking to her a few times I couldn't help but fall in love with her. She brought back all those wonderful feelings I had forgotten about and I felt fantastic!
Anyway, I asked her if she would join me for some lunch (something i've never had the balls to do before) and she agreed to! (not a date or anything tho)
We were having a really nice conversation and then she told me she had a, wait for it..........a boyfriend I can't remember why but I was pretty sure that she didn't. otherwise I wouldn't have fallen in love with her in the first place.
This totally crushed me. The thought that some guys got their hands on the thing I cherish most in the world. It makes me simultaneously upset, angry, frustrated and just **** depressed and it feels like my whole worlds been set ablaze. I even saw photos of them together on facebook and that made it even worse.
Now all those other feelings, the ones which made me repress it all in the first places are back and I just want to turn back time and choose to never meet her.
I feel bad also, because if she knew that she was causing someone this amount of grief, she would be heartbroken. She's such a nice person.
So does anyone have any advice for someone in my position? or have you had a similar situation?
I don't think I have the strength in me to repress it all again and now I've met her I feel like i'll never meet anyone with a soul as beautiful as hers again and I'm going to live out the rest of my life never knowing what it's like to be loved by anyone other than my family.
ok, I'll start by telling you that i'm 25 and have never had a girlfriend
A couple of years ago I got sick of being depressed from liking girls that didn't like me back and somehow I managed to block it all out. I don't know how I did it but somehow I completely repressed my feelings about women and for those two years I felt content and relatively happy.
Recently, I met a wonderful Korean girl at uni. I found everything about her completely mesmerizing and after talking to her a few times I couldn't help but fall in love with her. She brought back all those wonderful feelings I had forgotten about and I felt fantastic!
Anyway, I asked her if she would join me for some lunch (something i've never had the balls to do before) and she agreed to! (not a date or anything tho)
We were having a really nice conversation and then she told me she had a, wait for it..........a boyfriend I can't remember why but I was pretty sure that she didn't. otherwise I wouldn't have fallen in love with her in the first place.
This totally crushed me. The thought that some guys got their hands on the thing I cherish most in the world. It makes me simultaneously upset, angry, frustrated and just **** depressed and it feels like my whole worlds been set ablaze. I even saw photos of them together on facebook and that made it even worse.
Now all those other feelings, the ones which made me repress it all in the first places are back and I just want to turn back time and choose to never meet her.
I feel bad also, because if she knew that she was causing someone this amount of grief, she would be heartbroken. She's such a nice person.
So does anyone have any advice for someone in my position? or have you had a similar situation?
I don't think I have the strength in me to repress it all again and now I've met her I feel like i'll never meet anyone with a soul as beautiful as hers again and I'm going to live out the rest of my life never knowing what it's like to be loved by anyone other than my family.