My life hasn't been easy or a good one as far as I'm concerned. I had a lot of things happen when I was younger (mid 20's, teenager and younger) that I had no control over. I have no friends and haven't had for a very long time, and the friends I did have then turned out not to be real friends anyway.
I have tried to speak to therapists but I have never been able to tell the full story to them, as they always interrupt and put the blame back on me. I have even tried to tell my sister (who is 12 years older) but she knows some parts, has formed her own opinion and won't listen to the rest. I have so many negative emotions bottled up because I have no one to talk too
Why is it so hard to find someone who will listen? I'm not a bad person but people think I am. Or maybe I am a bad person. I have no idea anymore. I have been happy but that was all taken from me in what I feel was a cruel way and that was a long long time ago.
I did find a friend a little while ago but that fell apart due to my own stupidity and since then, I feel like giving up. After having a friend that I could talk to and seemed to care, I find it harder now to get up each day. I feel the loneliness and hopelessness so much more, knowing what I am missing. I honestly see no point in going on with this charade I call life but I know I will. I'm just not sure how I'm going to get through so many more days like this.
I have tried to speak to therapists but I have never been able to tell the full story to them, as they always interrupt and put the blame back on me. I have even tried to tell my sister (who is 12 years older) but she knows some parts, has formed her own opinion and won't listen to the rest. I have so many negative emotions bottled up because I have no one to talk too
Why is it so hard to find someone who will listen? I'm not a bad person but people think I am. Or maybe I am a bad person. I have no idea anymore. I have been happy but that was all taken from me in what I feel was a cruel way and that was a long long time ago.
I did find a friend a little while ago but that fell apart due to my own stupidity and since then, I feel like giving up. After having a friend that I could talk to and seemed to care, I find it harder now to get up each day. I feel the loneliness and hopelessness so much more, knowing what I am missing. I honestly see no point in going on with this charade I call life but I know I will. I'm just not sure how I'm going to get through so many more days like this.