itsmylife
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I don’t really know where to start. I don’t even know what to say. I just need somewhere to vent.
I’m in such a negative place right now. It has been such a long time and I just cannot find the way out. I have tried so many different things and nothing is working. I have health problems and my depression drags me down and zaps every last bit of my energy. I have lost someone I truly loved and am absolutely devastated. I just keep having bad news after bad news and I have no one to support me. I’m not great at putting my thoughts or feelings into words and usually end up being taken the wrong way.
I have a very negative self-image and very low self-worth and when people pick on this and use it against me it hurts more than I can explain. The voice in my head is constantly firing negativity at me and when anyone says anything negative about me the voice picks up on that and fires that at me too, over and over again. Meaning I find it very hard to let things go.
I am terrified of continually getting older and still getting nowhere. I have nothing to show for my life. I feel like I'm screaming at people but noone can hear me. I feel trapped, broken.
I have tried going over everything with so many different doctors and specialists but they just don’t seem to be able to help.
I just don’t see the point anymore. Well if I’m honest I haven’t seen the point in a long time but now I really, really want to fall asleep and not wake up.
I’m in such a negative place right now. It has been such a long time and I just cannot find the way out. I have tried so many different things and nothing is working. I have health problems and my depression drags me down and zaps every last bit of my energy. I have lost someone I truly loved and am absolutely devastated. I just keep having bad news after bad news and I have no one to support me. I’m not great at putting my thoughts or feelings into words and usually end up being taken the wrong way.
I have a very negative self-image and very low self-worth and when people pick on this and use it against me it hurts more than I can explain. The voice in my head is constantly firing negativity at me and when anyone says anything negative about me the voice picks up on that and fires that at me too, over and over again. Meaning I find it very hard to let things go.
I am terrified of continually getting older and still getting nowhere. I have nothing to show for my life. I feel like I'm screaming at people but noone can hear me. I feel trapped, broken.
I have tried going over everything with so many different doctors and specialists but they just don’t seem to be able to help.
I just don’t see the point anymore. Well if I’m honest I haven’t seen the point in a long time but now I really, really want to fall asleep and not wake up.