ScandalousGeek
New member
Hi All...
I'm new here and I thought I'd introduce myself. I'm a 26 year old nerdy plus size woman. I live with a bunch of housemates in Western Massachusetts. I travel a lot for work. I'm a closeted bisexual. I write, I love music, books, and dancing (when no one else can see me of course), and I live vicariously through characters on TV or in movies.
I've always been a little bit of a loner...never really had a lot of friends and never had a significant other. Lately, however, it's been worse than ever. I feel like even when I'm with people I'm alone. I get incredibly introverted when I'm in a new social situation. I'm constantly either clinging desperately on to the few friends I have or pushing them away to wallow in self-pity. I feel pathetic and that makes being so alone even worse.
The past few months have been horrible. I was so miserable and isolated at one point that I seriously considered ending my life. I realize now that things actually can get better, but I really need support to pull myself out of this hole I'm in. I'm hoping that if I start to voice my loneliness to others I'll find a way to feel better about myself and my situation.
Thank you all for listening. I look forward to getting to know you all.
I'm new here and I thought I'd introduce myself. I'm a 26 year old nerdy plus size woman. I live with a bunch of housemates in Western Massachusetts. I travel a lot for work. I'm a closeted bisexual. I write, I love music, books, and dancing (when no one else can see me of course), and I live vicariously through characters on TV or in movies.
I've always been a little bit of a loner...never really had a lot of friends and never had a significant other. Lately, however, it's been worse than ever. I feel like even when I'm with people I'm alone. I get incredibly introverted when I'm in a new social situation. I'm constantly either clinging desperately on to the few friends I have or pushing them away to wallow in self-pity. I feel pathetic and that makes being so alone even worse.
The past few months have been horrible. I was so miserable and isolated at one point that I seriously considered ending my life. I realize now that things actually can get better, but I really need support to pull myself out of this hole I'm in. I'm hoping that if I start to voice my loneliness to others I'll find a way to feel better about myself and my situation.
Thank you all for listening. I look forward to getting to know you all.