Hello,
Well where to start I have struggles with anxiety all my life, I was bullied in school but managed to get through it.
I used to just from one relationship to the next as I never wanted to be alone, then one day I just decided to be alone and it was great for a while but then started isolating myself again and my anxiety got bad again.
I started to go out with my friends and one night met someone, it felt like love at first sight totally whirlwind but we stuck together got engaged, my anxiety got really bad before our wedding and we called it off. From then things just went downhill my partner started using drugs (not to knowledge) and a year later he ended up in rehab after emptying all our bank accounts :-(
He parents were great they helped me out while he was away, I visited him and we had therapy together where I gave him an easy out from our relationship - but no he begged me to stand buy him etc, I did
It was incredibly difficult after rehab and my life started to revolve around him and his recovery, 18 months later just when I think things are getting better between us he ends our relationship :-(
I broke my heart but at the same time I felt like a weight had been lifted.
That was 5 months ago - I go through waves of being okay and just looking myself away, I still feel like we're meant to be but it just hurts soo much and I don't know if I could ever forgive him for anything - he says he loves me but need time to stand on his own two feet and really deal with his recovery (it's like he thinks he's doing me a favour)
Just feeling lost without him :-(
Well where to start I have struggles with anxiety all my life, I was bullied in school but managed to get through it.
I used to just from one relationship to the next as I never wanted to be alone, then one day I just decided to be alone and it was great for a while but then started isolating myself again and my anxiety got bad again.
I started to go out with my friends and one night met someone, it felt like love at first sight totally whirlwind but we stuck together got engaged, my anxiety got really bad before our wedding and we called it off. From then things just went downhill my partner started using drugs (not to knowledge) and a year later he ended up in rehab after emptying all our bank accounts :-(
He parents were great they helped me out while he was away, I visited him and we had therapy together where I gave him an easy out from our relationship - but no he begged me to stand buy him etc, I did
It was incredibly difficult after rehab and my life started to revolve around him and his recovery, 18 months later just when I think things are getting better between us he ends our relationship :-(
I broke my heart but at the same time I felt like a weight had been lifted.
That was 5 months ago - I go through waves of being okay and just looking myself away, I still feel like we're meant to be but it just hurts soo much and I don't know if I could ever forgive him for anything - he says he loves me but need time to stand on his own two feet and really deal with his recovery (it's like he thinks he's doing me a favour)
Just feeling lost without him :-(