onedepressedmom
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Just not having a good day today. Actually....it started last week. My birthday was Wednesday. My husband bought me a card as well as my kids. They asked me what I wanted for my birthday a week earlier. I told them that I wanted to go to the Olive Garden for dinner on the weekend after. The weekend came and not only did we not go, but it was not even mentioned. I guess they forgot about it. I seem to be forgotten about a lot these days. My own mother did not even send me a card! My online best friend did not mention my birthday at all! Not that I wanted this big party or anything, but something would have been nice. I have suffered from depression for many years now, the last three being the worst ever. I also have chronic pain from two botched back surgeries. Life most days sucks and I find little, except for my three kids, to make me happy anymore. The past week has just added more insult to injury here. All I do is cry when no one is looking. I have tried to be positive, but it is getting harder and harder. Does anyone have any thoughts to make this easier for me to swallow? I don't want to end up in the hospital again, mainly because there is no one to care for my children. I'm not the best mom in the world, but I'm the only one they have right now. I would appreciate any help here! Thank you!