cumulus.james
Well-known member
Sometimes talking people out of suicide may not be the best policy. Of course it is human nature to do so, to want to help, to alleviate suffering. But what if by remaining conscious and alive even greater suffering must be endured?
I became depressed, chronically lonely and first thought about suicide when I was 14. Some 20 years later I am still suffering. Had I realized my situation was permanent and fixed I would have not hesitated. I regret being alive this past 20 years.
What of now? Matters are worse. The only possible way to remain alive is to drink myself to death every night and wait for the resulting cancer, or to become lobotomized by weapons grade psychotropics to the point I am barely a person, and keeping me alive is merely a humanitarian gesture.
To be here like this in another 20 years. That's too much. It's a torture.
I don't expect to make it through this year. I think these must be my last few months.
Some people genuinely have nothing to live for and are genuinely beyond help.
Nothing matters anymore. Nothing.
I became depressed, chronically lonely and first thought about suicide when I was 14. Some 20 years later I am still suffering. Had I realized my situation was permanent and fixed I would have not hesitated. I regret being alive this past 20 years.
What of now? Matters are worse. The only possible way to remain alive is to drink myself to death every night and wait for the resulting cancer, or to become lobotomized by weapons grade psychotropics to the point I am barely a person, and keeping me alive is merely a humanitarian gesture.
To be here like this in another 20 years. That's too much. It's a torture.
I don't expect to make it through this year. I think these must be my last few months.
Some people genuinely have nothing to live for and are genuinely beyond help.
Nothing matters anymore. Nothing.