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macarmela16
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Hello all. To start with, I really don't have what you call a lonely life and I might be in the wrong forum but I guess with how I'm feeling now, little insecurities and some questions bout myself here and there, I feel like I may partly belong here. I'm 27 years old with a loving family, lots of friends and a stable work. I share part of my salary to my family and that makes me happy that's why I work really hard. I see to it to be there for my friends, making them laugh or just even smile makes me really happy. Doing some adventures and sports make me happy. Eating good food, makes me happy. Yes, it seems like I'm living a happy life. So, why did I join this forum? If you haven't notice, I never mentioned about my love life. It is because I never had a love life. Yes, never! I'm 27 years old but I never had a relationship, even short ones. I never experienced falling in love thus, never experienced being broken hearted. I guess some of you are now thinking, I think I'm in the wrong forum or site. I should be going to those sites or chat rooms to find a guy. Just to make this clear, I'm here not to find a guy for me, I'm here just to share how I feel. And I hope some of you will understand. I'm a happy person and I wanna be happy always but there is this part of me that's saying my happiness is not complete. Not complete because nobody loves me or even LOVED me (romantically). And yes, this is the part where I sometimes feel insecure and question myself. Am I this ugly? Do I have a bad attitude? Should I change my being tomboyish? Should I be slimmer and act like lady? But even with these questions, I get to provide answers. I see some who (really Sorry to say this) are not also beautiful like me and yet they have somebody who loves them or had experienced being loved. There are people also who many don't like their attitude and yet, there are still guys who still love them despite their bad attitude. There are also ladies I know who are bigger than me or act weird and act tomboyish than me but still, there are guys who are still madly in love with them. But why not with me? I can just count in my 1 hand the guys who courted me. Actually, they're just 3 of them. Why I never had a relationship with any of them? It is because they stopped courting me even before I can give them an answer. Which makes me question myself even more. AM I just not really lovable? Then I guess it is not true that each and every one of us has a partner in life or for some they would say, a soul mate. And yes, this is the part of my life which is lonely.
Sorry for my post. I guess it's too long already. I just wanna share how I feel and I hope nobody gets irritated or angry on what I just wrote. Thanks a lot for having this site where I can pour out my true feelings about this thing coz I never get to share this part of me to anyone I know.
Sorry for my post. I guess it's too long already. I just wanna share how I feel and I hope nobody gets irritated or angry on what I just wrote. Thanks a lot for having this site where I can pour out my true feelings about this thing coz I never get to share this part of me to anyone I know.