sorry I keep going on about this but I find it so insane. The girl I loved...or thought I did, I could go to her house right now. But I don't want to...it seems so mundane, yet at midnight I will crave her company and think how amazing she is...But now I just feel like what would be the point? what the hell would I say? hahaha...its like I won't accept that love isn't a disney movie, and that life is medium not high or low...Whenever I have the chance to end the agnozing loneliness the chance just seems so...mundane and pointless. The love inside me is completly intangible...I feel it so strong when watching films or listening to music late at night, when I feel most lonely, yet is simply not there in the mundane morning where I have the opportunity to meet people.