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Devin
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Hi everyone, I'm new here, my name's Devin, I'm fourteen, and bored to death! It's summer now. I was dreading when this day would come. I have only one friend that I could even consider 'close'. Plus she's a girl, and I'm a guy, I've always been ridiculed for hanging out with girls. It started in third grade when I met her, she was the only kid who didn't care about the way I acted. I admired her for that. Everyone else, I mean EVERYONE else would make fun of me, [mainly calling me gay, girly-boy], which really really really hurts a kids feelings/self esteem! The reason I acted too girly was because I was raised by my mom and sister. Since my dad was a pathetic loser who practically left us. That all lasted 'till sixth grade, when I moved to a different school, leaving my only friend and best friend behind, now we only see each other less than ten times a year. Anyways, then in seventh grade at this new school I thought it would be easy to make new friends, it's not. Fortunately, my cousin went to this school, and introduced me to his best friend, soon enough his best friend was my best friend.
Then he constantly made backstabbing remarks about my cousin, which I didn't mind [I never thought he would do the same to me]. So then the summer of me going into eight grade I found out George [ my best friend] was moving four hours away!!! I didn't know what to say, because if I expressed any type of sympathy he would be like, "dude quit being so gay"! Which would hurt. So, I stopped talking to him...since I never saw him. Then in my eigth grade year I hear some rumors he's talking crap about me [making me feel even worse]. So I finally figure out he used me the same way he used my cousin, now we don't talk...period.
But through it all my eigth grade year at my new school was better than my seventh. I met about five more people who are somewhat close to me. Yet, in school field trips and stuff...I never get to choose my partner because no one wants me, On top of all this, through the summer going into eigth grade...I got SEVERE cystic acne [full of liquid], and they hurt extremely bad, and everytime I'd pop one, another'd appear. I felt so horrid, and unwanted. This lowered my self confidence immensly. Now, the summer going into my freshman year of high school, I have been taking some medical drugs to get rid of my acne, which has succeeded. Yet, I'm really bored because I have no friends, I also have gained about twenty pounds, it's hard to tell though, I'm not fat or anything...I'm still so lonely...
---Devin
Then he constantly made backstabbing remarks about my cousin, which I didn't mind [I never thought he would do the same to me]. So then the summer of me going into eight grade I found out George [ my best friend] was moving four hours away!!! I didn't know what to say, because if I expressed any type of sympathy he would be like, "dude quit being so gay"! Which would hurt. So, I stopped talking to him...since I never saw him. Then in my eigth grade year I hear some rumors he's talking crap about me [making me feel even worse]. So I finally figure out he used me the same way he used my cousin, now we don't talk...period.
But through it all my eigth grade year at my new school was better than my seventh. I met about five more people who are somewhat close to me. Yet, in school field trips and stuff...I never get to choose my partner because no one wants me, On top of all this, through the summer going into eigth grade...I got SEVERE cystic acne [full of liquid], and they hurt extremely bad, and everytime I'd pop one, another'd appear. I felt so horrid, and unwanted. This lowered my self confidence immensly. Now, the summer going into my freshman year of high school, I have been taking some medical drugs to get rid of my acne, which has succeeded. Yet, I'm really bored because I have no friends, I also have gained about twenty pounds, it's hard to tell though, I'm not fat or anything...I'm still so lonely...
---Devin