I know this is the relationship section and whilst this isn't about me wanting a relationship, it is about a relationship.
I know I have some issues surrounding drink, or at least I did do, I've been sober for just over 3 weeks now and even more importantly I have no desire to drink anymore, I hit a really down spot which shocked me into wanting to be sober.
Anyways before I stopped drinking, just over a month ago, I went out for drinks with a few people from work. I was just about to leave that job anyway so it was just goodbye drinks with people, which turned very messy indeed. We were in the pub all night and so it was pretty drunken - as you can imagine. That night I was supposed to be going back to a friends house party, where a guy who I'd been seeing before (who treat me like honeysuckle) was going to be there. Stupidly for some drunken idiotic reason I asked a work friend to come with me to this party, so I didn't have to turn up alone.
It all sounds very innocent, then somehow we ended up kissing. And I went back to his house for drinks, after the party. We did NOT do anything though, we just stayed up drinking and chatting and kissing. He had told me he lived with his ex-girlfriend, and although he was so much more older than I, I was just a drunken silly girl trying to get over somebody else. I didn't see any harm in it, and I was too drunk to even remember most of it. I got a taxi home and that was that, nothing more - I haven't seen him again because I no longer work there, for me it was just an embarrassing drunken night - one which now I am sober I am glad will never happen again.
Anyhow I have just got off the phone, from a very angry girlfriend of this guy. She had found out that there had been a taxi from the house at 6am in the morning. And it wasn't his because he had said he had stayed in. She was actually at work that day. So it wasn't his ex girlfriend, they hadn't even broken up. She had a massive go at me, threatening me, she knows who I am apparently (though I don't know her) and she had rang the taxi firm up to ask where the taxi got delivered to (so god knows if she knows where I live). I understand she is angry, I would be too, I apologised and told her we only kissed, that as far as I knew he was single and lived with an EX girlfriend - and that we haven't spoke since - and that it was stupid drunkenness. But she was so angry, kept asking me so many questions that I honestly didn't know the answer to, it was over a month ago - I was drunk and stupid - and I feel terrible about it now. She kept saying if she found out I was lying she would make my life a living hell. I'm pretty freaked out.
To top it all off I heard a little girl in the background shouting mummy and she said she had to go because her daughter was there. Oh my god. He potentially has a daughter too?!
I feel absolutely awful. What the hell have I done?! I know technically it wasn't my entire fault because I didn't know he had a girlfriend or family, but even still, I feel so guilty.
I just needed to rant really, I feel so crap right now. And I don't deserve sympathy or pity or anything, probably just best to have a go at me too and tell me what a ***** I am. Gah!!!!
I know I have some issues surrounding drink, or at least I did do, I've been sober for just over 3 weeks now and even more importantly I have no desire to drink anymore, I hit a really down spot which shocked me into wanting to be sober.
Anyways before I stopped drinking, just over a month ago, I went out for drinks with a few people from work. I was just about to leave that job anyway so it was just goodbye drinks with people, which turned very messy indeed. We were in the pub all night and so it was pretty drunken - as you can imagine. That night I was supposed to be going back to a friends house party, where a guy who I'd been seeing before (who treat me like honeysuckle) was going to be there. Stupidly for some drunken idiotic reason I asked a work friend to come with me to this party, so I didn't have to turn up alone.
It all sounds very innocent, then somehow we ended up kissing. And I went back to his house for drinks, after the party. We did NOT do anything though, we just stayed up drinking and chatting and kissing. He had told me he lived with his ex-girlfriend, and although he was so much more older than I, I was just a drunken silly girl trying to get over somebody else. I didn't see any harm in it, and I was too drunk to even remember most of it. I got a taxi home and that was that, nothing more - I haven't seen him again because I no longer work there, for me it was just an embarrassing drunken night - one which now I am sober I am glad will never happen again.
Anyhow I have just got off the phone, from a very angry girlfriend of this guy. She had found out that there had been a taxi from the house at 6am in the morning. And it wasn't his because he had said he had stayed in. She was actually at work that day. So it wasn't his ex girlfriend, they hadn't even broken up. She had a massive go at me, threatening me, she knows who I am apparently (though I don't know her) and she had rang the taxi firm up to ask where the taxi got delivered to (so god knows if she knows where I live). I understand she is angry, I would be too, I apologised and told her we only kissed, that as far as I knew he was single and lived with an EX girlfriend - and that we haven't spoke since - and that it was stupid drunkenness. But she was so angry, kept asking me so many questions that I honestly didn't know the answer to, it was over a month ago - I was drunk and stupid - and I feel terrible about it now. She kept saying if she found out I was lying she would make my life a living hell. I'm pretty freaked out.
To top it all off I heard a little girl in the background shouting mummy and she said she had to go because her daughter was there. Oh my god. He potentially has a daughter too?!
I feel absolutely awful. What the hell have I done?! I know technically it wasn't my entire fault because I didn't know he had a girlfriend or family, but even still, I feel so guilty.
I just needed to rant really, I feel so crap right now. And I don't deserve sympathy or pity or anything, probably just best to have a go at me too and tell me what a ***** I am. Gah!!!!