Rant! - Okay, it's come to the point now... I *want* and *need* friends!!

[Dove]

Hmmphf.

I think I've been denying this for a while now, stopping myself from posting, but it's so true, I just have this aching void inside of me where I just feel so flippin' lonely, so like I don't have anyone I'm truly close to except from my partner... I just want what I used to have - Friends. Even just *A* good friend. I don't want rubbishy friendships... Aquaintance-like ones... I want to bond with someone, laugh with someone, I want someone to want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them.... Even if it's online! *sigh*

Heh, I suppose this feeling really showed itself to me when I asked my ex-best friend (Known her since I was about 3yrs old) who is miles away at uni most of the time, to visit me on the weekend she was only a few minutes away when she came home for a bit. I got an acknowledgement, but no answer. I felt so rejected :/

And then there were the friends I met online a while back - They don't talk to me much any more. Seemed to of happened since they found out I was big (I weighed 126lbs when they first met me, now weigh 250lbs) People move on, constantly, and I always seem to get left behind, missing what was, wanting it again, but never getting it back.

I'm introverted, I have low-self esteem, but I really do thrive off genuine social interaction.. And I have so much to give too - I love just as much being a friend as having a friend. I just have a lot of love inside me, desperate to get out! xD

So... I've posted here. I suppose I haven't got anything to lose.

I'm 19, British, I love helping people, animals (I have two cats), comedies, fantasy/adventure novels, MMORPGs, psychology, photography, blogging, drawing, horse-riding, camping...

I don't know what else to say really other than... I hope I find some people as needy as me who are willing to give being friends with me a go

Comment here, PM me if you like, I'm on most social networks and have MSN and all that so what you have, I could quite possibly have too.

 

[Merieth]

hello! I would be happy to be your friend! especially because you were so nice to me in one of my posts

i have just been a little busy lately with college and im trying to get a job, but i will still be online enough of the time to chat! (hopefully around the same time you are online!)

I know how you feel about the best friend thing...

I had a best friend since i was about 6...we were so close and we always talked etc etc... and just last year we went to a waterpark and to me it felt like she didnt really care i was there, and the same thing happened when i went to her birthday party. long story short, I found out that she had been telling lies to mutual acquaintances about me and i found out. when i confronted her about it she instantly got defensive but i said i wasnt angry... i was just really, really hurt. anyway, she never talks to me anymore and so i guess that is that.

i am a little overweight myself lol but that's okay! i am happy with who i am and i am sure that you are pretty

i also thrive off of social interaction, it makes me feel so much more alive when i feel connected with someone and can talk to a person i feel truly understands me and cares about what im saying.

as for self esteem... well, im pretty insecure about myself sometimes, but mostly with people i know. i have this worry that they will eventually find a reason to not like me anymore, but i dont let that bother me too much hehe

I love animals also! most of the pets I've had have been birds <3 they are so cute!

I love fantasy/adventure/romance stories! i write some myself in my spare time~ they might not be very good, but its really fun! MMORPGs are also a huge hobby of mine! i havent played any lately though.

horse riding! i always wanted to learn that but i was too lazy lol.

anyways this post was pretty long! im probably going to sleep really soon because its nearly 6:30 AM where i live and im finally starting to get tired lol.

hope to talk to you soon! ^^

 

[Zak]

Well if you meant online friends, then I can be one I guess lol. Although I am not so fast in replying to pms and all (maybe cos of my ADD), I will try my best to keep the friendship going.

 

[miltonbradley]

Let's all be friends wooooooooooooooooooooo

 

[mintymint]

Dove and Merieth, if you haven't already done so, you should come and check out the chat room. We'd enjoy your company

 

[Dove]

Awww thank you guys <3

 

[frey12]

Hey Dove, I would definitely like to talk to you. You seem nice. However I am in this real political kick that I need to get out of.

I am not to good with pm's as I tend to come and go for the site. But if you have an msn messenger you pretty much have access to me 16 hours a day.