Seriously though
I've been doing a lot of house cleaning. Facing my own deamons.
Recaliming myself. The last relationship sort of left a bitter taste
in my month sorth of speak. I lost myself somewhere alone the line.
I needed to heal. I recieved a lot of love and support from here
and where else face to face. I'm well enough now to stand on my
own two feet. Well enough to take a good honest hard look at
myself and admitted my shortcomings and become willing to take
responsiblities for my actions.
Alot of clearing out my mental and emotional baggages from
the previouse relationship. Doing whatever it takes..wheather
I pray for her to be happy...if that what it takes, that's what it takes.
Forgiving her and forgiving myself...whatever it takes to get rid
of the hate, anger or whatever negative BS out of me.
I wish not to carry whatever baggages i have into the next relationship.
Bascailly manning up doing whatever it takes to be a man and not a boy.
Loving myself, taking care of myself, charishing myself, rekindling the hope within me.
Why ?
I seriously doupt any women wants a boy for a special someone.
I can't giver her what I don't have.
If I can't truely love myself...then how in the heck am I going to be able
to truely love her ?
And how in the heck is she going to beliving in me...if I don't beliving in myself ?
How in the heck am i going to make her laugh if i can't laugh at myself ?
How in the heck is she suppost to feel good about herself being around me, if I am not happy or feel good about myself ?
Most likely you wouldn't want a vacumme or a life force
sucking machine or a miserible sob for that special someone would ya ?
The truth will come out and show in a long term relationship or a relationship of a life time.
The daily grind