Frostburn
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Hello everyone.
My name is Frostburn. Well, it isn’t my real name naturally, but I rather let my name remain hidden for now. Paranoid that people I know would find me and start to ask questions that I wouldn’t wish to answer.
So why and how I have ended up here? Finding this place wasn’t hard. Googleing ”lonely forum” gave link to this place on first hit. As for why.. Well I perhaps better tell something about myself to make it more understandable.
I am 18 year old male. My interests consist of gaming, philosophy, religion and roleplaying games.Typical nerdy guy. I don’t have any major fallacies in my life. I have parents that are interested in my life, friends to spend time with and my academic career is on right track. What is wrong here then? Total lack of love life.
Some of the older people would be dying to say in this point ”You are still young, you will find someone”. Perhaps it is true, but there is still big part of me that denies it. I don’t have any female friends, never had a girlfriend and never had any real physical contact with a girl. All of my friends have been in a relationship or are currently in one. Yes, I know teen relationships are rarely anything serious and I can agree with that, but it kinda makes me feel inferior around my friends when I am the only one with zero experience of the opposite sex.
This wouldn’t bother me much if would somehow be sure things would change for me when I grow older, but I am afraid of what will happen. I am quiet type of person and I get very highly agitated in any social situation with person I am unfamiliar with. Especially with girls, but that is something you might have already guessed. I fear when I move out from my home to a city where I have no friends I wont be able to build contacts with new people. Last time I had to independedly make new friends was at kindergarten so I am little rusty.. All the friends I have now are from that time or I have gotten to know through my old friends. I fear in time my friends will also forget me when they will have their own lives to worry about and I will be left totally alone. Without friends, without love.
My self-esteem is rather low. I have been overweight since I can remember, so all my life I have felt to be outwardly disgusting. Guess this reflects to my lack of love life directly. Luckily I have been able to reduce my weight somewhat recently. I also sometimes feel I just don’t have any sex appeal. I might be a decent friend, but that I lack anything that would spark deeper feelings in members of opposite sex.
Well anyway just something I wanted to vent out and perhaps make people learn something about me. Hopefully can exchange words with people in here.
My name is Frostburn. Well, it isn’t my real name naturally, but I rather let my name remain hidden for now. Paranoid that people I know would find me and start to ask questions that I wouldn’t wish to answer.
So why and how I have ended up here? Finding this place wasn’t hard. Googleing ”lonely forum” gave link to this place on first hit. As for why.. Well I perhaps better tell something about myself to make it more understandable.
I am 18 year old male. My interests consist of gaming, philosophy, religion and roleplaying games.Typical nerdy guy. I don’t have any major fallacies in my life. I have parents that are interested in my life, friends to spend time with and my academic career is on right track. What is wrong here then? Total lack of love life.
Some of the older people would be dying to say in this point ”You are still young, you will find someone”. Perhaps it is true, but there is still big part of me that denies it. I don’t have any female friends, never had a girlfriend and never had any real physical contact with a girl. All of my friends have been in a relationship or are currently in one. Yes, I know teen relationships are rarely anything serious and I can agree with that, but it kinda makes me feel inferior around my friends when I am the only one with zero experience of the opposite sex.
This wouldn’t bother me much if would somehow be sure things would change for me when I grow older, but I am afraid of what will happen. I am quiet type of person and I get very highly agitated in any social situation with person I am unfamiliar with. Especially with girls, but that is something you might have already guessed. I fear when I move out from my home to a city where I have no friends I wont be able to build contacts with new people. Last time I had to independedly make new friends was at kindergarten so I am little rusty.. All the friends I have now are from that time or I have gotten to know through my old friends. I fear in time my friends will also forget me when they will have their own lives to worry about and I will be left totally alone. Without friends, without love.
My self-esteem is rather low. I have been overweight since I can remember, so all my life I have felt to be outwardly disgusting. Guess this reflects to my lack of love life directly. Luckily I have been able to reduce my weight somewhat recently. I also sometimes feel I just don’t have any sex appeal. I might be a decent friend, but that I lack anything that would spark deeper feelings in members of opposite sex.
Well anyway just something I wanted to vent out and perhaps make people learn something about me. Hopefully can exchange words with people in here.