Athiest #001
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Hi, I'm new.
I am always lonely this time of day (evening). I guess it all really started to get worse when my girlfriend dumped me about a year ago for another (much older) guy. Our relationship wasn't even that GOOD, it was mostly sex so I really don't blame her for leaving, but it still hurt so much and left me feeling alone. I have a few friends but all we have in common is video games. All we ever do or talk about has to do with video games in some way. We used to play World of Warcraft all day, but I got tired of it and realized it was making me more depressed (and was probably part of the reason why my relationship with my ex was lacking). So I quit, restarted, several times, but now I have quit for quite a few months. Every night I feel so lonely, I feel like I need to reach out and just talk with someone about something important, or anything at all, but there is no one. Every once in awhile I talk to my ex again because I am so desperate to talk to someone who knows the REAL me, it just makes it worse though.
I have tired meeting some girls but I have only met a few and none of them seem very interested. I don't even know where to begin, I cant go do bars, and even if I could I don't even want to! I don't like big parties or crowds or alcohol. It seems like everyone is just interested in hooking up and I don't want that, sex is worthless without meaningful relationships. Where the hell do I go to find someone like me?
On top of it all I am struggling with school. I am so unmotivated because of it all I just come home and do nothing, occasionally play video games then feel guilty for doing so.
I am so lonely sometimes it just hurts so bad I wanna cry. Every time I talk to women I just spill my guts and tell them everything I think about day to day, how I feel humanity is so worthless. I cant help being honest about my state of mind and I think I come on way too strong and emotional even when I'm being positive. I try way to ******* hard and I'm sure they think I'm pathetic.
My ex tells me she misses me. fresia she shouldn't be allowed to tell me that when she dumps me. Hell I don't even love her anymore, I don't like her, but I love her at the same time you know? I know she is kind at heart and cares for me. I really just want to ******* move on though, find someone who I CAN actually love, have fun with, share some actual interests besides sex. Only problem is the only thing I'm good is playing video games, GG (as it were).
I am always lonely this time of day (evening). I guess it all really started to get worse when my girlfriend dumped me about a year ago for another (much older) guy. Our relationship wasn't even that GOOD, it was mostly sex so I really don't blame her for leaving, but it still hurt so much and left me feeling alone. I have a few friends but all we have in common is video games. All we ever do or talk about has to do with video games in some way. We used to play World of Warcraft all day, but I got tired of it and realized it was making me more depressed (and was probably part of the reason why my relationship with my ex was lacking). So I quit, restarted, several times, but now I have quit for quite a few months. Every night I feel so lonely, I feel like I need to reach out and just talk with someone about something important, or anything at all, but there is no one. Every once in awhile I talk to my ex again because I am so desperate to talk to someone who knows the REAL me, it just makes it worse though.
I have tired meeting some girls but I have only met a few and none of them seem very interested. I don't even know where to begin, I cant go do bars, and even if I could I don't even want to! I don't like big parties or crowds or alcohol. It seems like everyone is just interested in hooking up and I don't want that, sex is worthless without meaningful relationships. Where the hell do I go to find someone like me?
On top of it all I am struggling with school. I am so unmotivated because of it all I just come home and do nothing, occasionally play video games then feel guilty for doing so.
I am so lonely sometimes it just hurts so bad I wanna cry. Every time I talk to women I just spill my guts and tell them everything I think about day to day, how I feel humanity is so worthless. I cant help being honest about my state of mind and I think I come on way too strong and emotional even when I'm being positive. I try way to ******* hard and I'm sure they think I'm pathetic.
My ex tells me she misses me. fresia she shouldn't be allowed to tell me that when she dumps me. Hell I don't even love her anymore, I don't like her, but I love her at the same time you know? I know she is kind at heart and cares for me. I really just want to ******* move on though, find someone who I CAN actually love, have fun with, share some actual interests besides sex. Only problem is the only thing I'm good is playing video games, GG (as it were).
