Dear-_-Tragedy
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I handed in my keys to my house at university on Saturday. I wont be going back to that house again. On that day I felt very nostalgic about all the good times I have had at uni, and the bad times...but mostly good and it just makes me sad because I feel like it is the end of my youth, the end of partying like I'm invincible (which I found out the hard way I'm really not) I feel like there is nothing left for me socially and all my uni friends are slowly going to lose interest in me. I'm going to miss all of those parties and good times. I will especially miss first year which was perfect.
I often think I should have done things differently at uni. Like not fall in love with someone in the first **** semester of the first year. I should have kept my heart on my sleeve. I think I would have had a lot more fun and I wouldn't have wound up in such a mess. I can't blame it all on love though. I shouldn't have done all those drugs...my mental illness was a long time coming even before uni. I had to learn though that what I was taking was bad for me and now that I have I just feel like part of my life is over now. The young naive part. Not a care in the world.
So yeah, I handed in my keys on Saturday and I'm now living with my parents again and will do for my final year at uni (I will commute). I think this will help me academically, financially, mentally and physically. But I will also lose that freedom of living at uni with new fresh people. I feel like I'm losing part of myself the laid back, care free and fun side. Now all that is left is being a slave to money. Working, working, working just to survive. I know I have most of my friends at home and I know I may find an amazing girl one day but right now I can't see it happening.
I'd like to leave a song I wrote here:
Lyrics:
welcome to my life now another weekend of getting drunk
I'm bored of these streets now and I am tired and getting cold
As I walk these roads I contemplate the years gone by
Where did these years go where did those times go
I miss them so
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky
There's no one around now all my friends have gone away
Cause they've all grown up now and got a job and moved away
What can I do now I'm living the past I don't know why
I miss the laughter the awesome music and getting high
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky
There's no way of turning back the clocks
I just know I'll miss those times a lot
but in time i'll make it through the days
I'll be okay
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky x2
I often think I should have done things differently at uni. Like not fall in love with someone in the first **** semester of the first year. I should have kept my heart on my sleeve. I think I would have had a lot more fun and I wouldn't have wound up in such a mess. I can't blame it all on love though. I shouldn't have done all those drugs...my mental illness was a long time coming even before uni. I had to learn though that what I was taking was bad for me and now that I have I just feel like part of my life is over now. The young naive part. Not a care in the world.
So yeah, I handed in my keys on Saturday and I'm now living with my parents again and will do for my final year at uni (I will commute). I think this will help me academically, financially, mentally and physically. But I will also lose that freedom of living at uni with new fresh people. I feel like I'm losing part of myself the laid back, care free and fun side. Now all that is left is being a slave to money. Working, working, working just to survive. I know I have most of my friends at home and I know I may find an amazing girl one day but right now I can't see it happening.
I'd like to leave a song I wrote here:
Lyrics:
welcome to my life now another weekend of getting drunk
I'm bored of these streets now and I am tired and getting cold
As I walk these roads I contemplate the years gone by
Where did these years go where did those times go
I miss them so
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky
There's no one around now all my friends have gone away
Cause they've all grown up now and got a job and moved away
What can I do now I'm living the past I don't know why
I miss the laughter the awesome music and getting high
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky
There's no way of turning back the clocks
I just know I'll miss those times a lot
but in time i'll make it through the days
I'll be okay
I want to stay 18 forever so I will never say goodbye
To all the endless party and romance
I wished upon a starry sky x2