Anyone else get overwhelmed by their past some days?
I have survived brain cancer, lived through losing my dad to depression (he is alive but has been mostly absent since I was a kid, I'm now in my 30s), my brother stopped talking to me over 10 years ago because he has always as blamed my birth as the cause of death of his mother, my birth mother, who died a day after I was born due to birth complications. I lost my best friend from childhood a few years ago who died because of an unknown eplileptic condition. I have no friends to call to hang out with, my mom suffers from depression and has always been somewhat absent from my life.
I try to make the best of my own life - I ran my first marathon last year, just landed a really good job, have my first girlfriend in over a decade.
I just find that my past holds me back some days despite the positives. I've done therapy, etc etc, but the cycle repeats and I find myself in these days/weeks of just being down about life with no one to talk to about it. Making friends in your 30s sucks and you can't just rely on your girlfriend / significant other for everything.
Anyone else have this experience? Any advice?
I have survived brain cancer, lived through losing my dad to depression (he is alive but has been mostly absent since I was a kid, I'm now in my 30s), my brother stopped talking to me over 10 years ago because he has always as blamed my birth as the cause of death of his mother, my birth mother, who died a day after I was born due to birth complications. I lost my best friend from childhood a few years ago who died because of an unknown eplileptic condition. I have no friends to call to hang out with, my mom suffers from depression and has always been somewhat absent from my life.
I try to make the best of my own life - I ran my first marathon last year, just landed a really good job, have my first girlfriend in over a decade.
I just find that my past holds me back some days despite the positives. I've done therapy, etc etc, but the cycle repeats and I find myself in these days/weeks of just being down about life with no one to talk to about it. Making friends in your 30s sucks and you can't just rely on your girlfriend / significant other for everything.
Anyone else have this experience? Any advice?