M_also_lonely
Well-known member
Have you ever felt it? Or is it just my illusion? I don't think it is an illusion because it changed me totally for a few months. It changed my life for some time.
I have never taken drugs or alcohol, but I bet the pleasure I got is much more than the effect of all the drugs combined.
It happened like five years ago, a normal day (for me, it consisted of sad emotions, feeling lazy and not willing to speak to anybody). And I am sitting on the terrace, in the cloudy weather, listening to the song: "Set fire to the rain", by Adele, crying for the girl who had rejected me for some reason. The sadness was addictive and I loved to feel it. And then it happens, a rush of that energy, emerging from my head, my body went numb for a while, I don't know what it was, but, suddenly, all my sadness was gone. I was so excited, energized, happy, fresh and confident. From the next day, I was more focused, alert, active, unbelievably happy. No signs of negativity, I was feeling unbeatable. I didn't have much to achieve, just to score the best during the board examinations. And it happened, I made it. But then, slowly and steadily, the energy started draining, without my notice. And soon, it was all gone. I was back where I was before it happened.
I don't know how that happened, but it was the best experience I had within myself. I don't know how to make that happen, I want that energy, I need it.
Has anyone felt such a thing before? Does anyone know how to make that happen?
I have never taken drugs or alcohol, but I bet the pleasure I got is much more than the effect of all the drugs combined.
It happened like five years ago, a normal day (for me, it consisted of sad emotions, feeling lazy and not willing to speak to anybody). And I am sitting on the terrace, in the cloudy weather, listening to the song: "Set fire to the rain", by Adele, crying for the girl who had rejected me for some reason. The sadness was addictive and I loved to feel it. And then it happens, a rush of that energy, emerging from my head, my body went numb for a while, I don't know what it was, but, suddenly, all my sadness was gone. I was so excited, energized, happy, fresh and confident. From the next day, I was more focused, alert, active, unbelievably happy. No signs of negativity, I was feeling unbeatable. I didn't have much to achieve, just to score the best during the board examinations. And it happened, I made it. But then, slowly and steadily, the energy started draining, without my notice. And soon, it was all gone. I was back where I was before it happened.
I don't know how that happened, but it was the best experience I had within myself. I don't know how to make that happen, I want that energy, I need it.
Has anyone felt such a thing before? Does anyone know how to make that happen?