CenotaphGirl
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Long post, buckle up and read if you fancy!
So recent events have me thinking about how I lost my childhood best friend to a very similar almost identical situation.
When I was younger, I had a best friend I grew up with, we was neighbours, she was older than me in school years but we spent most of the year the same age as she was the “baby of her year group”. Now to paint a picture of how close we were, we had a best friends diary in which we would swap over the fence every day and leave notes in it to each other.
My friend moved schools and I remember thinking, we’re best friends forever, nothing will change that. However, in her new school she became friends with a girl that was extremely popular, very beautiful.
One day, we went for a long walk to the popular girls house, I was very nervous, confiding in my best friend that I was a little worried she wouldn’t like me. Outside the house we bumped into the popular girls little sister who ran up to us with a drawing, I laughed in a friendly way at the drawing and said wow this is so cute.
I met the girl and we got on like a house on fire. I was shocked. She’s older than me, and super popular and well we all know I didn't glow up until late in life.
Anywho… I left the house and I was telling my bestie how much I really liked her friend and cannot wait to go back to see her again. A couple of weeks passed by and I was always asking about her friend, hoping she was okay and wondering when we could see her again. I also confided in my bestie that I was feeling a little nervous that an amazing friend like that, is better than anything I can offer and she may not want to be best friends with me anymore.
So it’s early on a… Friday? I make the trip to grab something for my dad from the local store, which is the opposite way I go to school. There is no way I’d usually bump into my friend or her new friend any other time but today as I was making that special trip. I hear a lot of shouting and I see a large crowd of some older kids. Wow sigh of relief ! My bestie is there along with her new friend, I jump to say hi! I was met with “You are a liar, you laughed at my little sister behind my back and you was jealous of my friendship with your bestie” I was shocked. "What? What do you mean?”
It’s always this way around too, I am met with a barrage of personal attacks because they think I’ve been sitting around saying worse about them behind their backs, also this makes it hard to back track and believe anything I say now, as no one wants to think they have attacked someone based on a lie.
What breaks my heart is, the truth is so far from the lies people seem to tell about me, and it’s always the same old lies, I am some sort of 2 faced female dog. I am not. I am very direct, they take things I have said out of context on purpose and try to poison people against me. But you know the funny thing is, only a confrontation makes the truth come out. If I was a sneaky snake, the truth would never come out. If I genuinely did all them things and it came out, I would deny everything, or idk what someone would do? But I always say what I said, in the correct context, if the person is mad at me over what I actually said and did, fine, but what you should always think is, if they are talking about me... they are talking about you and it's all false whizz.
Me and my bestie never really spoke again. My cousin actually slept with her, met her family and pretended he wanted to be with her and broke her heart… no idea why, but I am sure I am to blame for that too somehow. Her mother and grandmother even came to my mum like… is Ceno okay with the relationship as it’s getting serious and we dont want her to hold on to the past grudges and ruin what they have…. please… not everyone is as sick and twisted as your daughter.
This time around I recognised the situation instantly, still so shocked that someone I really trusted with everything would do something so childish and low down. I hope they admitted the lies they told to the people they hurt with them. As thats more important to me than an apology, that I knew, I would never get.
So recent events have me thinking about how I lost my childhood best friend to a very similar almost identical situation.
When I was younger, I had a best friend I grew up with, we was neighbours, she was older than me in school years but we spent most of the year the same age as she was the “baby of her year group”. Now to paint a picture of how close we were, we had a best friends diary in which we would swap over the fence every day and leave notes in it to each other.
My friend moved schools and I remember thinking, we’re best friends forever, nothing will change that. However, in her new school she became friends with a girl that was extremely popular, very beautiful.
One day, we went for a long walk to the popular girls house, I was very nervous, confiding in my best friend that I was a little worried she wouldn’t like me. Outside the house we bumped into the popular girls little sister who ran up to us with a drawing, I laughed in a friendly way at the drawing and said wow this is so cute.
I met the girl and we got on like a house on fire. I was shocked. She’s older than me, and super popular and well we all know I didn't glow up until late in life.
Anywho… I left the house and I was telling my bestie how much I really liked her friend and cannot wait to go back to see her again. A couple of weeks passed by and I was always asking about her friend, hoping she was okay and wondering when we could see her again. I also confided in my bestie that I was feeling a little nervous that an amazing friend like that, is better than anything I can offer and she may not want to be best friends with me anymore.
So it’s early on a… Friday? I make the trip to grab something for my dad from the local store, which is the opposite way I go to school. There is no way I’d usually bump into my friend or her new friend any other time but today as I was making that special trip. I hear a lot of shouting and I see a large crowd of some older kids. Wow sigh of relief ! My bestie is there along with her new friend, I jump to say hi! I was met with “You are a liar, you laughed at my little sister behind my back and you was jealous of my friendship with your bestie” I was shocked. "What? What do you mean?”
It’s always this way around too, I am met with a barrage of personal attacks because they think I’ve been sitting around saying worse about them behind their backs, also this makes it hard to back track and believe anything I say now, as no one wants to think they have attacked someone based on a lie.
What breaks my heart is, the truth is so far from the lies people seem to tell about me, and it’s always the same old lies, I am some sort of 2 faced female dog. I am not. I am very direct, they take things I have said out of context on purpose and try to poison people against me. But you know the funny thing is, only a confrontation makes the truth come out. If I was a sneaky snake, the truth would never come out. If I genuinely did all them things and it came out, I would deny everything, or idk what someone would do? But I always say what I said, in the correct context, if the person is mad at me over what I actually said and did, fine, but what you should always think is, if they are talking about me... they are talking about you and it's all false whizz.
Me and my bestie never really spoke again. My cousin actually slept with her, met her family and pretended he wanted to be with her and broke her heart… no idea why, but I am sure I am to blame for that too somehow. Her mother and grandmother even came to my mum like… is Ceno okay with the relationship as it’s getting serious and we dont want her to hold on to the past grudges and ruin what they have…. please… not everyone is as sick and twisted as your daughter.
This time around I recognised the situation instantly, still so shocked that someone I really trusted with everything would do something so childish and low down. I hope they admitted the lies they told to the people they hurt with them. As thats more important to me than an apology, that I knew, I would never get.
I am supposed to give Shakira album cover vibes.
