the-alchemist
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Man, these last 5 days has been really crap. I hate my own impulsive stupidity.
I had moved to a new city, and I was getting ready to just enjoy life and not be anxious about girls and relationships and love. I thought to start enjoying life without constantly worrying about love and girls. For once I could talk to a girl and not have any expectations.
Then 5 days ago, I attended a party to just have fun without expectations. I then talk to a group of girls just to have a casual talk, and they all want my goddamn phone number. Why? Because I'm a foreigner and in this country I'm in, foreigners are considered exotic. The girls here just wants to have a foreign friend because it's cool and trendy.
Being the stupid idiot I gave them my phone number. I'm once again pulled into this honeysuckle of ambivalent signals and them wanting to show off their foreign friend. Of chatting with them, and this honeysuckle. People say student girls are easy to get as girlfriend but they don't know what they talk about. At least when you go to a bar, both guys and girls know what to expect. Student girls will give you romantic signals but only want something from you, whether it be free english-practice, a free dinner, or a trophy foreign friend
Anyways, I just wanted to take it at my own pace and let whatever happen happen. And now this anxiety has come back, now I have returned to my emotionally dead state where I can't feel any chemistry. The hunger for a girlfriend has returned. The few weeks that I didn't care was such a bliss for me, where I just decided to leave it to fate and stop chasing love.
I really needed a pause and take it at my own pace. I dunno, more than anything I want to return to how I was before September 12th.
I had moved to a new city, and I was getting ready to just enjoy life and not be anxious about girls and relationships and love. I thought to start enjoying life without constantly worrying about love and girls. For once I could talk to a girl and not have any expectations.
Then 5 days ago, I attended a party to just have fun without expectations. I then talk to a group of girls just to have a casual talk, and they all want my goddamn phone number. Why? Because I'm a foreigner and in this country I'm in, foreigners are considered exotic. The girls here just wants to have a foreign friend because it's cool and trendy.
Being the stupid idiot I gave them my phone number. I'm once again pulled into this honeysuckle of ambivalent signals and them wanting to show off their foreign friend. Of chatting with them, and this honeysuckle. People say student girls are easy to get as girlfriend but they don't know what they talk about. At least when you go to a bar, both guys and girls know what to expect. Student girls will give you romantic signals but only want something from you, whether it be free english-practice, a free dinner, or a trophy foreign friend
Anyways, I just wanted to take it at my own pace and let whatever happen happen. And now this anxiety has come back, now I have returned to my emotionally dead state where I can't feel any chemistry. The hunger for a girlfriend has returned. The few weeks that I didn't care was such a bliss for me, where I just decided to leave it to fate and stop chasing love.
I really needed a pause and take it at my own pace. I dunno, more than anything I want to return to how I was before September 12th.